A/N-Hello there, love. This is my first one shot of anything so please go easy. I know the grammar is not correct in some places but overall I hope you enjoy!
The main plot of this one shot is the words left unspoken from katniss to gale. Please review so I know what to correct and what you felt about it! (:
It's the memories I should get rid of, scratch that, need to get rid of. It's not the fact that I still own the photograph of us together, not the fact that our families still visit each other time to time. I just can't help but wonder what would have happened if I ended up with you. Sure, I'm happy with Petta. He's a great husband and an even greater Father. I get tired of him going into his little modes, when he forget's who I am and goes all crazy, I can't blame him though, I scream at night, it's no different. I just can't get it out of my head that when you kissed me, you totally meant it. Everything you did towards me you gave 100 percent. You took care of Prim and mother while I was in the games and when I got back you didn't stop. It's that every time I go outside, as soon as the wind hits my skin, the wonderful scent of the woods fills my lungs. The long afternoons where we would do nothing but relax, picking at blueberries once in while in the spring. You would act like a little kid when you trapped the father deer you've had your eye on for a couple of weeks. The starry nights where we ended up sleeping in the patches of leafs but we didn't worry because nothing in the world could harm us when we were together. You waited for me to regain my emotions after the first games. You continued to wait after everything I went though but then, well, I'm not quite sure. Petta purposed, I said yes, you ran too district two. Were you upset? Did you do it because of a job or too get away from me? I haven't talked to you since I sent you the wedding invite, was that a mistake? If I could talk too you one more time, it would be all I need. I go to bed thinking up the conversation. The dialogue plays perfectly in my mind. Would the script go perfectly in yours?
I can't help but look at my children and think of you. It's a terrible thought but sometimes I think to myself; they could have been yours. But, I dread the day my children's innocent world is shattered by learning the details of my past life. You're going to come up in that story, many times.
And then there's when you killed Prim. Or, you might have. I doubt myself many times when I say that it was you're fault. You were fighting for more every bodies life's there and Prim would have been happy knowing that because of her death, she saved others.
I just wanted you to stay. I just wanted you too see how much I miss you terribly. I need you back in my life. But, I'm worried that if I ever get you back that nothings gonna be the same. That's why I'm just going to leave you alone. Because It's better to just quietly miss someone, rather than let them know and just get no response.