Hey guys! My second fanfic! Enjoy R&R
Bella POV
"Mom?" Renesmee chimed, "What?" I was in the middle of picking out a paint color for her room because she thought baby blue was too young for her, even though she is only 5 years old, she looks 15, as well as her personality. "What is this box, it has your name on it." I walked in from my room to see a box wrenching with my old scent. I froze, not remembering what I had put in there. I knelt down next to her finding my old jeans and two pairs of converse down towards the bottom. It gave me a weird feeling, my scent was so strong. "Ness, where did you get this box?" She pointed towards her closet. "It was on the top shelf. There was a note attached that said the rest was Charlie's" I got Edward's car keys off the hook and dragged Renesmee out the door.
"Where are we going?" She questioned. "To Charlie's I want to see if my stuff is still there." I slammed the car door. She got in the passenger seat and put her face in her hands. Charlie still refused to ask questions, and he just continued on in life happy as ever. He saw me almost four times a week. Renesmee was growing at an incredible rate, but yet Charlie didn't care.
We had been keeping a low profile in Forks. Rosalie and Emmett were off in London, pretending to be on some college trip. Alice and Jasper were vacationing in New Hampshire, but everyone in Forks thought they were Studying Cancer at a science center. Carlisle still worked at the hospital, and Esme worked at a child care center in Port Angeles. And Edward and I were hiding in Forks. No one knew we were still here but the pack and Charlie.
"Mom, you refuse to go into your room every time we go to see Charlie. Yet it was true, I didn't like to go into my room much. It felt weird…I cant explain the feeling. "Well Ness, I am going to this time." She just leaned against the head rest and looked at me with my eyes. My old eyes. They were almost the exact same, Edward said her eyes didn't have the depth mine did, but yet that was not true. I was Jealous of Renesmee, and I hoped Edward never knew that. He was out hunting now, and thinking of him made me want to be near him. She was everything I wanted to be. She was Beautiful and could live for a very long time, we hoped forever. Yet, she was fragile and was human in so many ways. That's what I want. I want to be fragile, yet live forever. I want Edward to have to protect me, but I want to be with him forever.
We pulled up to my old house and I banged on the door harshly, trying not to break it. "Dad?! Its me!" Charlie opened the door with his shot gun in hand. "What? What's wrong?!" I laughed a little. Charlie's hair was scruffy and his eyes were half open. I must have woken him from his slumber. "I am sorry dad, its only me." He chuckled to himself as he put his gun down. "Can I go up to my room and get some of my old things?" Charlie seemed shocked at this. "Sure, Kiddo. Go right ahead!" He hugged Ness and went back to sit on the couch. "Game is on, so uh, take all the time you want."
I headed up the stairs slowly, staggering along the way. And I hesitated on the door knob and then finally opened the door. My sent filled the room, and a million memories filled my mind as I looked around at my room. My bed spread was still the same. All the pictures and books and nooks and cranies were still the same. I ignored the prominent feeling of gone, no longer existing, part of your past. I opened the closet and pulled out boxes that said in black marker, 'DO NOT OPEN!' I pulled down two more boxes that said the same thing, and I don't remember writing that, although it was in my human handwriting. I threw them to the floor as I took my old clothes off the hangers. I was surprised Charlie hadn't turned it into a sports room, he obviously didn't come up here often because it was as if I still lived here.
"Mom?!" Ness tugged on my shirt. "Your blood! Its on this!" She pulled out a green dress with black flowered patterns on the bottom, and dry blood stains were splattered on it. I fell to the floor, I knew exactly what the dress was. It was dress I has worn to my 18th Birthday party Alice threw for me. It was the night that started it all. Jasper had come at me when I got my paper cut. Maybe coming here was not a good idea, I had been smart to write, 'DO NOT OPEN' on them when I was human. The scent, and seeing it brought me back 6 years ago. It was an awful idea to come. I should not have, I had to ruin my perfect life. I was just curious to see some of my old things, and I ran into what I knew I was trying to avoid. Because I knew they're were pieces of clothing that were worn in a time of regret, I knew they're were items in that room I would have to face, pictures I would have to look at, journals, notes, newspapers, all stupid things a person shouldn't get upset over. Yet somehow I knew this would upset me dearly. Ofcorse, It had to be me, Bella, ruining what was good. My life has been going smoothly…up until now.