Disclaimer: Hikaru no Go?—I have yet to sue the creator for such a brilliant work that caused me depression by oceanic waves of emotion.
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What does infinity do to a man?
There is that ache again—for a moment, he almost thought he'd lost it; that pain is unpredictable. The throbbing in his chest never did leave.
He hates this existence; no one knows he is here. He died long, long ago, and was forgotten quickly. The moment he let the river take him, he was gone.
But Torajirou knew him...Hikaru knows him.
Then he is nothing but a figment of imagination. If only he passed on then, instead of leaving his shadow of the earth; if only he had not chosen the watery underworld clamp their irons about him, binding him to earth, with his craving for more. For the go, the black and white stones dotting the wooden galaxy; the exciting war in which no one died, nothing but the undead stones.
He has no heart; just an airy cavity floating where it should be—but it feels that empty feel, of water touching oil but never embracing it.
The years have been a dream—a long, drawn-out dream. The oil drips down thickly, sluggishly, and all that he touches is the hollow of the air. He can't take it for himself—
He wonders...how the bitter earth feels. But all he can remember, in his last moments, is the rushing current, the soft, slipping water taking him away. If he struggled, then it was futile; it was done. The surface would have tasted lovely, but the water was iron.
He has had much time to ponder, and he realizes, now, that he never left the water.
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Fujiwara no Sai is gone now.
Torajirou has waited.
It's ended, finally—strangely enough.
Someday...someday, Shindou Hikaru will join them, where the black and white planets criss-cross the galaxy, and are smooth between their fingers.
What will they do then, when the oil loosens and the surface breaks?
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PT: I dunno...I started watching and reading Hikaru no Go back in seventh grade, I time I value very much... Now, when I watch the end, and continue reading it...aiyaaa, the nostalgia T_T A little bit of inspiration came from the song Days.
One of the late birthday gifts for my dear ezyl :)