Heya all how r u? So I am posting again tonight! I dunno if many of you or rather how many have seen the new two month old show on FX Sons Of Anarchy (Wedndesday nights at 9:00 or 10:PM?) Well I love this show a hell of a lot it's got great potential and I felt I wanted to do something with it. So I made this crossover fic! If your a DS or SOA fan or both you'll love it most likely, the plot is so thick and twisted. Charlie Hunnam is goregous as hell so I wanna work with his character Jax. I wanna thank ma girl and beta Elle for helping me and giving suggestions without you this wouldn't be as good! Love ya xoxoxox. Love our SOA chats. Rate and review peeps! :)

Chapter 1: The Black Waters of Deception and Blueberries

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Lying: a form of deception, dishonesty and hiding the most fucked up secrets of all. It's been twenty-five years in Charming, twenty-five long god damned years in this town. Sighing, I flipped the leftover ashes from the cigarette between my fingers. Tonight was the night, I couldn't wait any longer I had to see them. I had to see the two precious wonders, my sons I'd left behind in Boston. Last time I'd seen my first born boy he had a head full of that blonde moppy hair just like Jax did the first few weeks from his birth. I sighed William my oldest I guarantee he also has the most charming sense. Where he gets it from I'll never know, guess all my sons get it from me?

And that other sweet son of mine. My third born and final son. Joseph! He was twelve last time I saw him, thin like I was at his age, his hair was tinted with blonde on it's way to turning brown. He'd be what twenty- three now, since last Wednesday. William would be about twenty- eight now. A year older than Jax is. I leaned my head back sighing deep, tracing the scar on my chest I picked up the phone off the glass table in front of me.

I sighed lookin at the clock ticking. I tapped my nail against the glass as the phone rang. "Hey baby." His scratchy voice spoke.

"Hey yourself darlin." I replied with sternness in my voice.

"What is it?" He asked lowly.

I sighed deeply resting my hand on my forehead.

"Gemma what is it? Your not lookin for a lost hand to open the jelly jar are ya huh?"

"Don't start that shit now Clay, besides you'd know If I needed help with somethin, it'd be getting out of this lace I wear everyday." I said smirking.

"What if I like the lace you're wearin?"

"Playing coy isn't your strong point. I wear what I wear because I know no tart can pull it off. Besides I don't do what I do for the grace of humanity. And certainly not an old tart taper like you."

He huffed making known I was getting to him. It's true no tart can pull off this shit, you'd think with three kids my ass would be as fat as the rear end of a loading dock. I shook my head.

"Tell my then need someone to uncross some of that lace, breathe air into them strong pipes?"

"Don't kid yourself with that shit baby," I spoke. "I'm a big girl, got my Better Crocker shit down well. But there is something, I sighed look Clay I think it's- I think it's time again." His breath quickened.

"Gemma you're not fucking going back there!"

"Look babe I love you, but you have no say in this." I stated firmly. "I have to do this you know I do. It's been to damn long!"

He sighed harshly. "No shit Gemma it's been seventeen god-damned years! If he hasn't tried to find you now then he doesn't want to find you apparently!"

"It's they and LOOK I am going tonight whether you see me off or not. You know I left them behind to be with you and keep Jax safe, but I owe them dammit! A mother doesn't walk away from her children baby."

"That's not what you walked away from. You walked away with a hell of a lot more. Remember I was there?"

I sighed again my eyes wetting with moisture. "Dammit Clay you know why I had to leave that fat fuck. I didn't want to leave my sons; no telling what he has them doing?"

"You and I both know exactly what they're doing. Mixing shit isn't good for you or Sam Crow Gemma and you know it!"

"Sam Crow has you to keep it on its feet and I have to ensure safety of them no matter what you understand me? I need another favor from you as well." I said, hearing him sigh from the other end. "I need you to look after Jax for me."

"Jax is a big boy." He growled.

I closed my eyes. "Clay you said you'd do this shit for me if you can't-" He cut me off, "I'll do it, but if that meathead finds you."

"He won't." I assured him.

"Yeah well you better be sure." He stated.

"Like I said Mama is a big girl."

I could hear a little smirk in his voice. "I'll be there in thirty minutes."

"Thanks darlin." I spoke up.

He growled deeply before mumbling "you can thank me later." And hanging up.

I put the cigarette out on the wood. "Ah shit." I cursed as the ashes stained the table. I held my hand up and swept the ashes into them I got up and went into the kitchen slinging them in the trash can. I was a little on edge about seeing my boys after so long. I had made frequent visits ever since I left them, even while pregnant with Jax. God he looked so much like William.

I walked over to the sink and ran the water over my hands. I picked up a towel and dried them off. I leaned against the sink. So many things have happened since then. That bitch broke Jax again, Abel got pneumonia, and thank god he's all right. I just hope things would be all right in the end of Boston. "God please let them be ok." I spoke out loud.

I heard the sound of the roaring engine roll up. If only he knew what I had done. Who I was. My boys didn't know me as Gemma. Only two people knew my real name. One is dead and the other well... I wanted so much to take my little ones with me, but that fat pig. After Joseph was born I was forced to give him up. Maybe if I left he wouldn't be so angry anymore. Or maybe he wouldn't threaten Jax. I sighed things were so royally fucked up! I had to leave two of my babies behind and I am protecting the other who doesn't even know the two secrets I hold from him. Of course Jax is the middle child like I was in my family. Shits hard. Nothing is what it ever seems shit is always reeking from every corner of the fucking world. And the ones closest to you are the ones you vow to protect, but your enemies only they know the real you.

I threw the towel aside just as the screen door creaked open. "Hello?" His thick rough voice spoke.

I took a deep breath before walking into the living room. There was a sweet laughter coming from there as well. One I had recognized all to well over the years. I turned the corner walking into the living room. "Hey darlin." I greeted him, placing a kiss on his cheek.

I turned my head to the right smiling. "Serenity baby how are you?" Out of all the sluts Jax was with Serenity has been closest to him for years. She was my eyes, ears and the vision of true innocence. She had done some bad shit, but she was a baby with the big stuff. She kept Sam Crow's secret did things for Jax, talked to him. I truly got appreciations for her the night Jax married that crack whoring slut. Never seen her cry in all the time she's known us. I can't put finger on why I like her I just trust her with my son's life, my life and Abel's especially.

She deserves to be that damn baby's mother. I shook my head. Jax and her things never went that way; it bothers her more than she or Jax know I'm sure of it. Her past and family abandon her once they found out whom she was involved with. She's stayed with Opie for a while. She's some of the sweet little ass glue that keeps Sam Crow true and strong.

Some of her looks remind why we fight in all this. "I'm good Mrs. Teller." I laughed as she blushed. "Sorry is it Morro?"

"Don't worry about it darlin. How about calling me Gemma though that Mrs. Teller shit is to old."

"You'll have to forgive her mom she's still a baby." Jax called out, smirking and lighting a cigarette.

"Fuck you! I just turned-" Twenty-one." Jax cut her off.

She slapped his shoulder and I slapped him in the back of the head.

"Ow what the hell?" He laughed.

I raised my eyebrows. "Don't interrupt people Jackson." I said.

He blew out smoke and rubbed his head laughing. "Sorry." He mumbled setting on the edge of the coffee table at the door's entrance. He began bouncing his leg up and down. "What?" He asked as I started at him along with Serenity.

I shook my head. "Did you turn twenty- one now?" I asked Serenity.

She smiled proudly, and Jax pulled her onto his lap bouncing her on his knee. He leaned his chin on her shoulder. "Well then this means were in dept for a big ass celebration doesn't it?"

She blushed pink and I leaned over and brushed some hair from her face and eyes. "No need to blush honey." I smiled.

"Nothing to extravagant Gemma you know how I hate all of that."

"Ah all we'll need is a bottle of tequila and your lace panties." Jax mocked in her ear.

"I'll take the tequila and go find me some real ass Jax." She laughed smirking at me.

"What ass baby why go far when you can have it here?"

She gagged and grabbed the smoke from his hands. She took a whiff and blew the smoke out in his face. "I'd rather take ass from the Prospect." She mumbled. "Oh fuck no." Jax shouted. She busted out laughing.

"Prospect has a tart." I reminded them smirking.

"Think she's gotten a little to cold Gemma." Serenity sang laughing.

Jax laughed. "Women are fucked."

"Too fucked." I spoke. Serenity nodded.

I winked at her. "No worries sweets we got time this weekend." I picked up my black duffel off the floor and slung it over my shoulder.

"This weekend? Where the hell you goin this time?" Jax asked.

I gave him a smug smirk. "Wouldn't you like to know?"

"Actually I would." He retorted raising his eyebrows.

I cocked my head to the side at him. "Your curiosity reeks like a shithouse rat Jax."

He took the cigarette back and took a drag blowing smoke through his nostrils. "Just be careful Mom. I don't like you going on these little outings, especially alone."

"Girls gotta get some time away from good ol Charming." I replied playfully.

Serenity slapped his shoulder. "You need help with any of your bags Mrs. Te-" I held p my index finger cutting her off. "Gemma." She corrected herself. "No thanks sugar, I got em." I replied. "Just watch out for my son here make sure he strays far away from harm."

She smirked this time. "He is the harm." He threw his arm around her. "And she follows me into my shit! So clam the shit trap shut!" He said huskily. I started laughing, "Must be all those fumes from that pussy caller you drive."

Serenity busted out laughing. Jax tilted his head at me.

" I don't know why the hell you two are laughing you have no problem riding on them!" Jack stated rolling his eyes. "Besides shit they save on gas anyway, damn economy."

Serenity smiled. "I ride on them because I have to although I'd rather not."

"Chicken shit." Jax laughed. She rolled her eyes and smacked him on the shoulder before he snorted twice.

"Pigs live here eh?" A raspy voice called out.

He stood there in the doorway pulling his black shades up and waltzed over. He pecked my lips. At least the scent of him wasn't anywhere that pigs scent back home. "The only pig is you." I smirked lightly brushing his chest with my fingertips.

He smirked. "You'd like to think that."

I heaved the bag and started for the door. "Well Clay you going to pick up some of this cargo shit load and help me?"

He sighed shaking his head and picking up the two of the three remaining bags. "Crazy ass woman."

"You married her." Jax cockily stated laughing.

I walked out to my car and loaded the bag in the trunk and slung my purse through the open window on the passenger seat. Clay wrapped his arms around me before I had the chance to re-enter the house. He turned me around and pressed his lips to mine. "Baby- come on- I got to- go." I said between kisses.

"Just be careful Gemma and if you need me you better fucking call me ok?"

"Yes big daddy I'll call you ok." I said putting my hands on his cheeks.

"Every hour?"

"Clay!" I scolded. "No! Every day all right?"

"Gemma-"

"Trust me baby I have to do this you'll understand."

"I already do." He spoke looking towards Jax bike.

"Aw babe, come here." I hugged him and we walked back into the house.

Clay is hard as nails hard as hell, but deep down I know he's a good man and he'll take care of Jax, after all he is... "You comin?" Clay asked breaking me out of my thoughts. I nodded. We entered the house and I beat Clay to picking up my last bag. "Easy there I got it."

I hugged him. "Bye baby. See you in a few days!"

I kissed him and he whispered in my ear. "Be careful."

"I will." I spoke lowly as Jax looked at me. I knew that look his curiosity was taking over. I needed to go and quick before he asked questions I couldn't answer so soon if at all.

I hugged Jax and kissed his cheek. " Be safe darlin and be careful. Serenity you keep him in check and try to be safe sweetheart." She nodded. "You to Gemma."

"Love you mom." Jax spoke.

"Love you to baby."

As I carried the bag with care out to my car and set in the floorboard of the front seat Jax came out hands in pockets. "Hey Mom. Why don't you cut this be safe bullshit and tell me where the hell you are really going?"

"Like I said baby Mama needs some time away from charming now and then."

He smirked. "That shit doesn't fly with me. If you really wanted to get away from here you'd done left permanetly as many times as you used to take off on these outings. Why now all of a sudden?"

Shit to many smart genes seeped into that boy's brain. "Look baby Mama here has her business and her life that is not your business. Do I butt into your business?"

"Actually yeah you do." Jax spoke smile playing on his lips.

"Well I'm your mom, which gives me a right into seeing you have the best for yourself, but you can't butt into my business understand sweet face?" I smirked back.

"Mom come on I could come with you."

"What about the club and Serenity?"

"She'll be fine and Clay can handle the club."

"No baby they both need you here more than you think. I'll be fine I just need some time ok? Now I love you so get the hell back inside!"

Jax sighed. "Fine, but don't get yourself into any shit or jail."

"I doubt jail Jax."

"Fine then Mom if you don't want to tell me." He smirked again.

"I don't." I smiled mischievously. "Bye Jax." I laughed,

I got into my car and watched him stare at me through the review mirror. "I hope I don't get myself into any shit baby." I spoke driving off.

Jax walked back inside while Clay was staring at Serenity her smiling awkward. "Is she gone?" Clay spoke up.

"Just peeled out." Jax spoke. "Hope she's gonna be ok."

"Your mom is Gemma for shit's sake boy. Of course she can take care of herself she'll be fine."

Jax nodded walking over to Serenity and Clay mumbled.

"I sure hope she can..."

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It took me ten minutes to get to the edge of town before I pulled in at the filling station and started pumping gas. I stuck my credit card in the slot and got in the car pulling around back after paying automatic. I pulled the light blue duffel up into my lap and opened it careful and lowly taking out the contents. My nine-millimeter and the berretta I stuck in the extra side along with two boxes of ammo. I turned the gun around in my hand before sighing and placing them bag and safely zipping the bag and tossing it into the floor.

I pulled out and turned the radio on lighting a cigarette. I just hope everything goes as planned. And I won't have to use these on the fat fucker himself Bones Darley!