Ok I need To Stop changing my stories so here it goes…

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Summary: Bella has Major Anger issues and takes it all on the people around her in including the people she loves. But mostly on Her Little Cousin Lillie. But Lillie Has a secret. A deathly secret That Bella Surely shouldn't have found.

Forgetting Yesterday :

…BPOV…

There are some things in life, that shouldn't be found. Many things. My anger issues was one of them. I cant help it… I just blow up easily. I wish I didn't but I just do. I didn't ask for it.

I Know it hurts Charlie, seeing me like that. It had too, every time I would blow up at him, there would be something in his eyes. Saying "Don't". And every time I did it , I cried. I ran up to my room and cried. Ready to give up… Ready to well… die.

Charlie knew how I was feeling and that hurt me even worse. Knowing that your dad knew you were suicidal. Very awkward. I knew Charlie was going and "try and make things better", but I didn't see how?

And I didn't want to know.

It had been pouring rain for the last three days and it seemed endless, but to me… it was never going to stop. It was Saturday Morning, time for another stressful day, full of arguments, name calling, and a side
of well shown attitude. I sat on the couch with my blood red converses planted on the ground. Charlie was in the kitchen afraid to make eye conduct. I turned on the TV to a random show and kept it there. I had nothing better to do and my room was getting boring. I could hear Charlie stutter like he was afraid to say something. I stopped him.

" Say it dad. Spit it out" I said with still facing the TV. I really didn't want to know but I thought It would make him feel better. We had been getting into arguments lately , and well I haven't been really nice.

" I was just thinking if you would like…" he paused.

" Go on…" I said a little curious. Now I was interested.

" You could go to the Cullen's Today, if you wanted to. I know you haven't seen them in a couple of day's, because you were grounded, but I talked to Alice…"

" When did you talk to Alice?" I turned around this time.

" This Morning… while you were asleep, she said that she would love to have you come over…" Charlie still wasn't making eye contact. He seemed uncomfortable.

"Oh ok. I guess I could. I'll go get ready." I got up and ran up the stairs, annoyed and trying not to blow.

I grabbed my black as night skinny jeans my red zebra tank top. I threw off my clothes and changed into the ones in my hand. I ran down stairs to get my heart bracelet that I left there last night, it meant the world to me. My cousin made it for me for my 15th birthday. I ran back upstairs after I snatched it from the kitchen counter where Charlie kept a far distance from. I ran into the bathroom and took a quick look in the mirror and noticed that my hair was straight this morning. For once.

I heard the phone ring, I heard Charlie say "Hello?" in his "manly" voice as he called it.

"Yes… umm what ever you say… of course she'll be disappointed. Sure I'll tell her, and loose an arm! I'll tell her Alice. Alright bye." I heard him hang up the phone.

" What did Alice want dad? Are they still coming to get me?" I paused at the bottom of the stair case.

"Umm no. No Bells, Alice said that they were sorry but something came up and you cant come over today."

I felt the heat come to my face, I didn't say any thing I just walked out of the house, I knew Charlie wouldn't stop me.. He wouldn't dare. I walked right out into the pouring rain, closing my eyes and heading for the woods. "Something came up" I mocked it until I saw a Log I could sit on. I let my anger go and started to shake and kick like a five year old. My hair spun around like crazy, and right there at that moment I hated myself. I truly hated myself. Why did I act like this? I started to cry like there was no tomorrow. I Looked at my bracelet that slightly dangled from my right hand. It had tons of beads on it. It looked so child like. But that's why I loved it, I've always adored hand made gifts. Those always meant the most to me. Most to my heart. I got up and slowly walked straight not knowing where I was going. I just needed to get away before I collapse.

I stopped I needed to just stop. I lowered my head and waited. I looked up unaware how far, how deep inside the forest I was. I was mostly likely in the heart of it. I couldn't see anything else but trees. And it was still raining. "Great.." I threw my hands in the air "GREAT" I yelled.

The rain felt cold as I turned back around. Colder than it had been. I probably was going to get sick.

I felt someone watching me, but I didn't care, It was just another annoyance in my life. I started to hear foot steps behind me. "I don't care" I yelled loud enough it made the foot steps stop.

I didn't know how long it had been since I left the house. I could have been a whole day and I wouldn't have known. The porch light was on. So that meant he was still in the house.

I took A deep breath before going inside.

"Hello?" I said while looking inside to a face I thought I never would see again.

"Bella!"