"Jace…" I hear her mutter. I turn on my side and look at Clary, her eyes closed. She fell asleep… I sigh and reach for her hand, bringing it to my mouth. I kiss it lightly, before holding it loosely in my hand, my other hand tracing the runes on her arms. She was so… beautiful. I pull myself closer to her, touching her face with my fingertips. Her eyes flutter open and she nuzzles into my hand. She realizes what she's doing and pulls away.
"Jace… We shouldn't do this.. We are siblings.." She says softly pulling herself away from me.
"I don't care if its wrong, Clary!" I say loudly. She winces at the tone of my voice. I lower my voice, speaking softly.
"I love you Clary…" I say looking into her eyes. She gasps softly, inching closer to me. I pull her quickly to me, and slant my mouth to hers. The way our mouths fit together, how she felt against me. We couldn't be siblings! It didn't make sense. I delved deeper into her mouth, trying to erase my thoughts. My hands were on her back pulling her to me while her hands were in my hair. I love her… I love her… Then why is it wrong? To hell with who our parents are. My mother abandoned me and my father is evil. Fuck them. I feel Clary separate from me and I opened my eyes, scanning her face.
"Jace, This is wrong. You're my brother." She said looking away with tears in her eyes.
"Tell me no, and Ill stop. Say you don't love me and I'll stop. Tell me I will only ever be your brother, and I will stop right now." I say my voice growing louder. She opens her mouth to say something but quickly closes it. She takes a small breath.
"I can't.." She says, her voice breaking. I wrap my arms around her, and hug her as sobs rack her body. I murmur comforting things in her ear but I don't know what I'm doing. I nuzzle into her neck and kiss the skin there, my mouth moving up her neck and finally to her mouth. I kiss her softly, nothing more than the brush of the lips. She smiles, the tears beginning to dry on her cheeks.
"I love you Jace." She says, just above a whisper. I smile broadly.
"I love you more." I say, bringing her mouth to mine. This kiss was sweet, a kiss between lovers. I smile against her lips and hug her tightly to me. She pulls herself from my grip and lies down, facing me. She twines her hand through mine, looking me over. I bring her hand to my mouth and kiss it softly.
"Go to sleep, love." I say softly, brushing a lock of her hair behind her ear,
"Are you tired?" She asks. I grin.
"I have never been more awake." I say smiling. She grins, making me replay the memory of our first kiss. Before… Before I knew she was my sister. Two shadow hunters.. In love.. With the curse of having the same parents. I bite my lip to get back into reality. I look at Clary and see her still smiling at me. I kiss her forehead.
"I am so sorry,Clary." I say softly, bringing out my stele. A fearful look crosses her face.
"Jace, What are you doing-" She gets cut off as the rune takes effect. The rune of sleep. One last rune. A rune to forget. To forget this night. To think is was all a dream. I trace the rune on her, a tear streaming down my cheek. I pocket the stele, wiping the tears out of my eye. I had to fight Sebastian. To sacrifice myself for my love. And if Clary remembered what we did, that we kissed, that I said I loved her.. She would be heartbroken. I reach for her hand and kiss it one last time.
"I love you Clary." I whisper before I get up. Its time to leave.