Good Evening everyone! I have returned after a few months. Welcome to a new story! This is about Kensi as a single mother and it will be over time so like every few weeks months and years. I hope you enjoy this and this is my first time killing someone so it's not very good.

A/N: I don't own anything ;(

29/04/17

Kensi Marie Blye-Deeks sat herself on the sand. She inhaled the salted air deeply and shut her eyes tightly, trying not to let the tears roll down her cheeks. She held the badge that belonged to her partner, best friend, husband. She opened her eyes and a tear gently rolled down her cheek as she looked out across the ocean. She placed a hand on her stomach, which carried their first child, and more tears streamed down her cheeks. They were only married a year but been dating for two and known each other for eight. It hadn't hit her yet. The man whose child she is carrying, the man who loved her, the man who protected her was gone. Kensi was hit with the memory of that fateful day 2 weeks ago.

"Stay in the car Kens. I'll be back in a minute." Deeks told his wife opening the car door.

"Why. I only have to stay in the car if there was to be a shootout. Don't think that will happen in a Nail Salon." She told him, undoing her seatbelt.

"I know that. But we have been questioning people all day. Why don't you sit out of this one. I'll only be a minute Fern. Don't worry I'll be back." He replied winking at her.

"Fine," Kensi huffed, "But bring me a donut from the bakery next door." She called out as Deeks ran across the road.

Everything seemed fine as she watched the Salon and then in a split second everything froze. One minute he was standing there talking, next lying on the ground, blood pouring out of his head. She didn't even hear herself scream. Kensi pulled of her seatbelt and started running to her husband. She couldn't remember pulling out her phone and calling Eric to get an ambulance. Everything had froze.

"Oh god Deeks. Can you hear me please open your eyes." She cried holding Deeks head up.

"Kens. Is that you?" Came a faint reply from his lips.

"Deeks stay with me please, I can't lose you." She cried burying her head into his chest.

"Fern. Promise me something." He gasped trying to get the words out.

"Promise me that our baby will grow up knowing how handsome and amazing his father was. Promise me that if I die, you will be there every step of the way. Promise me Kens."

Kensi nodded. "I promise. You're gonna be fine Deeks. You have to be fine." She lifted his hand and placed it on her stomach.

"I love you Fern." Deeks whispered, slowly slipping out of consciousness.

"I love you too Shaggy." Kensi replied. She placed one hand on top of her stomach along with Deeks and the other on his chest. She felt his chest slowly rise up and back down one last time.

In that moment her world froze. She felt herself being pulled away by Sam and Callen as the paramedics worked on him to try and get him back. But he was gone.

"Kens. Kens. Are you okay?" Callen's voice seemed like an echo.

"He's dead. Deeks is dead." She whispered staring blankly at the body of her partner.

Kensi let out a breath. She felt the same when she lost her father, the same feeling of heartache. She didn't know what to do anymore but she made a promise that she would be strong for their baby who was due in three months time. A sudden tap on her shoulder brought her out of her daze.

"Everyone is wondering where you went." Callen said, taking a seat beside her.

"Just wanted some quiet." She replied turning to face him.

"How you feeling?" He asked

"Empty. Like a part of me has been ripped from me and it's somewhere out there and I will never get it back." Kensi told him tears forming in her eyes.

"I just want him home G." She whispered tears falling down her cheeks into the sand.

"I know Kens. I know." Callen pulled her into a hug and held onto her for the rest of the night, letting her cry into his shoulder until she felt she was done.

Well how was that? Yeah I know terribly. It is the first time I have ever killed someone and made me tear up. I will probably rewrite it sometime but this will do for now. It's pretty short as well but it's nighttime and I'm tired so. Anyway hope you enjoyed that and I might update soon, who knows ha.

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