I was reading both the Ceres arc of the manga and angsty Tsubasa Chronicles fanfiction and this came to life.
In Fai's POV
Normal- Dark!Fai
Italics is Fai's self not wanting the fate he chose.
Sort of spoilers for Book 17
Only one copy of 14 thru 19 of Tsubasa Chronicles belong to me.
It is so easy to drown yourself in regret, anger, and loathing.
I practice it with great enthusiasm.
Who deserves this hate more than me?
Pour it onto me. Hatred, anger and pain.
I'll shoulder it all with a smile.
I don't want pity, or understanding. I will not accept it.
Just hate me, destroy me, burn me with fury born of righteous anger.
I drain you of any pity. I suck it through your wrist.
I smile for her, she acknowledges the lie I will not say to her.
I ignore him, he knows how to see through me.
I love the word Misfortune, it fits so well with me.
I love the deaths heaped on my desolate soul.
I love the sweet crimson of blood.
I can't help that it's your eyes too.
Drench me in the pool of crimson.
Pierce my unworthy heart with your icy blade.
Leave me to fall farther than Yomi.
Let them survive.
Let them thrive.
Let them forget.
Let them forget the horror that is me.
Let him forget me.
Let me out!
Yomi - The Shinto underworld.