Five in the fucking morning and not enough time to take a damn smoke break. I looked over at the blond from behind the safety of the sheets with a scowl.
"Not again..." I mumbled beneath my breath. A part of me hoped that he hadn't really heard me. He did. Turning he gave me one of those looks. I rolled my eyes, more to myself than him. He was damn scary.
"Matt don't even start with me. Not in the mood." Yeah, yeah, yeah we'd been through this…we had already done this, but I could tell that it was slightly different. He was serious. Sitting up I no longer peered at him from behind the sheets. He turned to give me another glance, only this time it was longer causing heat to rush up into my face and look away.
"What is it this time, Mel?" I didn't have to look to know.
"It's nothing...important."…it was in his voice. His features softened as he began to let himself forget.
I lied back down, rolling onto my side pulling all the blankets around me in attempt to hide or understand. However, it was an impossible task. There wasn't a time that I could ever fully understand him no matter how hard I tried. I wanted to but...
"Then what's stopping you?"
The blond was behind me now hugging lightly onto my waist as he leaned closer to me. I shifted my eyes to over my shoulder to see him nuzzle in closer, to hug onto my shoulders. Pressing his lips to the back of my neck he pulled away.
"That's a secret," he forced a laugh. Nothing close to the real ones he used to emit as a child at Whammy's; sadder. If anything I could remember at all it was that.
Times were hard then, but as things progressed it only proceeded to become harder. With the closer we got the harder it was on the both of us. Mello never wanted to admit that though. He closed himself off from that. He pretended…
"A secret eh?" I asked leaning back into my best friend's touch. He hugged tighter.
"You'll know…soon."
It was always the same answer; no matter how many times or when I asked he always gave me that same answer. It's been awhile since we'd told each other anything. It hadn't helped either that he had become a part of the Kira case on his own terms, it's only pushed us further away from each other. Only times like this were we close…It was like this that we could truly be close.
"I know." He moved in closer and with one last proposition we were falling back into that same cycle.