Choke

by darksupernatural

Song fic. Dean and Sam's thoughts while trying to find each other. Set post s3. Have no idea if this even makes sense. Just knew I had to do it. Song is Choke by Kazy. Don't own any of it. Please review!

A/N: Okay, I'm not sure how this one is going to work. I've had this song in my head for days. Saw the video, have the song on repeat in my Jeep(loud) and am completely nuts for trying this without knowing how a song fic works. Don't know if the format is right or if it even makes sense but it's something that wouldn't let me be. Song is Choke, by Kazy. Dean and Sam's thoughts are italics. Don't own the song, Kazy, or the guys.

Choke on myself for you

I spoke on my need for you (my fire for you)

And now I choke on my knees for you

I'll be a savior

I'll fight these demons till they drop (drop, drop...)

I choke on my knees for you

Gave everything for ya Sammy. Gave my soul, sold it to get ya back. Said I'd save ya and I did. I will. No matter what, I will. Fought the dark. Will fight hell for all I'm worth. I'm sorry Sammy. I choked. In the mud in Cold Oak, I choked. You died and I just… Choked.

It's pulling me hard, bleeding we are

But it's never too far

Dean, can't get you outta my head man. I've tried. It's like you're chained to my brain. God, I can't stop, tryin to save you, findin' a way to get ya back. Never had to fight so hard to breathe. Never had to remember to make myself freakin' breathe. I just can't. It's like I choke. I've lost ya, I've lost everything and I just feel like I'm chokin'.

I don't get it (choke)

I'll fight Sammy. I'll find a way back. I won't choke again.

I can't take this

I have to find you Dean. Without you I can't breathe.

I won't make it far

Reach for me Sammy. I can't do this alone. I don't want to choke.

I can't breathe can't breathe

Gotta find you man. I'm drownin' in smoke here man. I can't breathe, I'm chokin'.

I choke

Don't let me choke Sammy.

Help me breathe, Dean.

I don't get it

I can't take this

I won't make it far

I can't breathe I can't breathe

(Don't know why) I choke

Choke on myself for you

I spoke on my need for you

my fire for you

I can't, I couldn't let ya go. I made that deal, I asked for ya back. I begged… Sammy, I begged, I choked. Now I'm paying for it. I'm falling. I'm burning. Don't let me burn. Don't let me fall. Stop me from fallin' Sammy.

and now I choke on my knees for you

Falling faster (burnt my wings)

Can't get these burning wings to stop, stop, stop

I'm reaching through the fire Sammy. It hurts man, but I'm holdin' out a hand.

It burns, Sammy. Don't let me fall.

It's pulling me hard, bleeding we are

But it's never too far

Can't get you outta my head. I'm gonna find you. I'm gonna save you and I'm gonna need you to help me breathe man. Dean, I can't breathe without ya.

I don't get it (choke)

I can't take this

I won't make it far

I can't breathe I can't breathe

I choke

I'm reachin' out. Don't let me go.

I don't get it (choke)

I can't take this

I won't make it far

I can't breathe (don't know why)

I choke

Take my hand. Help me breathe.

I can't breathe I can't breathe

I can't breathe I can't breathe

I can't breathe I can't breathe

I can't breathe I can't breathe

Help me breathe Dean.

Don't let me burn Sammy.

Don't let me choke.

Don't let me fall.

I choke on my need for you

choke on my life for you I

choke on my knees for you

choke on my life for you I

I've got you. You're done burning. You're not falling, Dean.

You're not choking Sammy. You're breathing.

I don't get it (choke)

I can't take this

I won't make it far

I can't breathe can't breathe

I choke

I'm here. Not burning, not falling.

I'm here. I'm breathing, not choking.

I don't get it (choke)

I can't take this

I won't make it far

I can't breathe (don't know why)

I choke

"You're not falling Dean. I've got you."

"Breathe Sammy. You're not choking."