You Have Lost me Forever

Summary: Damon's POV of what happened at the end of 2x03.

Chapter 1

I walked with Elena on her front porch, telling her that we had fun in Duke. She replies that things aren't back to the way they were, and to be honest that hurt. I thought that she would be over the fact that I nearly killed her brother. And he's alive so why in the world is she still pissed? Deep down inside I knew she had every right to be pissed at me for what I did. I had no right to do that.

"Oh come on, you I know I chipped a bit at your wall of hatred." I smiled jokingly at her, hoping she would smile back. Instead, she grew more aggravated.

"I need the truth. When you snapped Jeremy's neck, did you know he was wearing the ring?"

I sighed. Back to this are we? Well, maybe if I tell her the truth then she won't hate me as much. I knew my efforts were in vain and that she would continue to hate me to her grave but I had to gain back that shred of friendship that I KNEW was inside of Elena's heart, ready to be unleashed.

"No," I choked out, surprised by how my voice sounded, "I didn't. He got lucky wearing the ring. I don't know what I would've done if he wasn't wearing it."

"Thank you for being honest." she replied sincerely.

I inwardly smiled, knowing that our friendship maybe did have a chance in hell. Maybe there's hope after all.

"And the answer to your question about our friendship,"

I mentally prepared for the harsh rejection I knew I was going to get.

"Is yes."

It was as if the angels were singing from the heavens. Did I hear her right? Did she really say yes?

"You have lost me forever."

In that instinct, the world that I was in quickly collapsed and I found myself back at square one. I knew I was deluding myself, thinking she would forgive me after one little piece of truth. So why is my stomach doing flip flops and making me feel like I'm going to hurl?

I stared at her in complete silence, flabbergasted and angry. Well, if she wants to play rough then I'll be damn happy to comply. "But you already knew that, didn't you?" I spat with hate and venom in my voice. "You used me today."

"You had information about Katherine that I needed to know." she stated like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

I couldn't believe her. I could NOT believe that selfish little bitch. She was no better then Katherine, hell she's worse then Katherine! She wanted me to get my hopes up about our friendship when she said yes and paused. She wanted me to reach for that shining star in the sky and then quickly yank me away from it's grasp, reminding me that she and Katherine have so much more in common then just the way they look. I stared at her shocked face before I said the words that would surely destroy her. "You and Katherine have alot more in common then just your looks."

I took in her shocked face and then quickly spun on my heel and left, not once turning my head to look at the woman that I cared for more then anything, and the one that had the power to hurt me the most.

But even on our deep driven state of hatred, we both knew I would come whenever she needed help or was in danger. She knew my weakness was her safety and well-being.

She knew how much I loved her, that's why she won't forgive me. She doesn't want to betray Stefan so she pushes me away. Well, she doesn't have to push anymore. I'm done with her. I'm done with everything,

The end