Title: No contact
Summary : He broke their 8 year relation for another girl. As medical doctor she needs a steel heart and breaking down is not an option.
Disclaimer: Naruto is the creation of Masashi Kisimoto.
There are times in your life that you just simply want to give up on living. For other people they see me as a happy, gregarious and a successful person but once I am alone especially at night all my demons attack. They always keep coming back and say all the things that are true.
``You`re a trash.``
`` He left you because you hurt him with your uselessness``
``He`ll never ever come back.``
``You should die.``
Those are just some of the things that my demons kept saying. That is true I hurt him. I hurt him because I am selfish. He left me because that girl showed and gave him all the things that he should have.
What should I do?
I tried talking to him, begged him to worked with me again and rediscover ourselves and work together to build a stronger relationship. He shunned me. He said that he still wants to be friends. I can`t do that. My love for him is more than a platonic one. All I can do is to pray and try to pretend that everything is alright. My career is great my friends know what happened but they said that our breakup is a blessing in disguise.
My deepest point was when every night I get drunk so that I can get a dreamless sleep. He heard about that and ordered me to stop. I did. He said that how can he consider me again if I am not changing for the better and then he compared me again to that girl. I also taught of suicide but I don`t have the courage to do that. How about my patients, my friends my family? What would happen if they know that I committed a suicide because of him. They will blame him and for sure he would blame me also.
So here I am today in a city where no one knows each other. A big city were different nationalities meet. I`ve decided not to contact him for 30 days. This will make or break me. It`s terrifying but I feel so much better here. A place where no one knows me. A place where I need to be strong not for someone but for me.
Author`s Note: Hi, it`s me again. I was undergoing some rough times right now so I haven`t been doing some updates on my stories. I will try to finish all of them. I know this story sucks but please bear with it. I tried my best, God knows I tried my best writing this.