This is a sidestory of "Lost Innocence" by Thrythlind, written and published with
permission.
I swear, I was working on the second part of LTE, but every time I sat in front
of the computer with that story opened on word processor, my brain just freezes.
So I'm decided to put that off for a while and work on the next part of the trilogy,
which will come out before this weekend. Please understand!!! I have the outlines
of all my stories, from beginning to end, it just takes me forever to put my ideas
onto paper.
Anyway, "Lost Innocence" is one of my favorite Ranma fics, and this morning, inspiration
just struck me and I got up at 1 in the morning (actually, I just never fell asleep)
and wrote this! I hope you'll enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, not even the storyline.
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Real Men Don't Cry
By: CSMars
7/5/2001
Revised: 7/8/2001
I gaze at myself in the mirror,
And see the tears in my eyes.
"Real men don't cry." my father once told me,
I look down and see my high chest.
Well, I say to that little voice in my head.
Real men also don't have boobs.
This whole ordeal still feels like a dream,
And I think I could wake up any second,
Cold and alone on my futon, but male.
It's hard to believe, isn't it?
Me, Ranma Saotome, violated.
Raped by that samurai wannabe.
I have gained so many enemies,
But also so many friends:
Kodachi, Ryoga, even Nabiki treats me like a person.
Most of all, I have Akane,
Even though I don't know what she sees in me,
Except a dirty, weak girl who killed her own baby.
She says I am pure,
But Kuno*'s foul hands have roamed my body;
She says I am strong,
But I couldn't even fight to defend my innocence;
She says I am honorable,
But I had let a man** sleep in her bed.
She smiles and says love is without reason,
I had no choice but to agree with that one.
She loves me, and I love her.
That I know with all my heart.
The time I spend with her,
Is the only time I'm happy in this damnation we call life.
I take another glance at myself in the full mirror,
My flaming hair, my thin waist, and my long legs.
"Real men don't cry." my father's voice echoes in my mind.
But I'm not a real man, am I?
So I let my tears fall...
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AN: I think I'm going to cry. It's not as emotional as I though it would be and a
little sappier so I made it Angst/Romance instead of Angst/Drama like I planned
to in the first place. Anyway, don't be offended by the ending and tell me that Ranma
is manly and honorable no matter that form he's in, 'cus I believe that, too. I meant
the ending to be taken very literal, as in he doesn't have the body of a man, so
he's not a complete, real man. Okay, remember to write a review. Please, it would
help my writing a lot if you make suggestions or comments.
Thanks, love you, CSMars
Revision: I did a little revising in the fifth stanza. Thrythlind made a comment
about giving Ranma a reason to think he's not honorable, so I did, and now it's much
better n_n
* I know Kodachi kicked Kuno out of Kuno family, but "Kuno" just sounds so
much better than "Tatawaki" or just "that rapist."
** In case you don't know, I'm talking about Ryoga.
permission.
I swear, I was working on the second part of LTE, but every time I sat in front
of the computer with that story opened on word processor, my brain just freezes.
So I'm decided to put that off for a while and work on the next part of the trilogy,
which will come out before this weekend. Please understand!!! I have the outlines
of all my stories, from beginning to end, it just takes me forever to put my ideas
onto paper.
Anyway, "Lost Innocence" is one of my favorite Ranma fics, and this morning, inspiration
just struck me and I got up at 1 in the morning (actually, I just never fell asleep)
and wrote this! I hope you'll enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, not even the storyline.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Real Men Don't Cry
By: CSMars
7/5/2001
Revised: 7/8/2001
I gaze at myself in the mirror,
And see the tears in my eyes.
"Real men don't cry." my father once told me,
I look down and see my high chest.
Well, I say to that little voice in my head.
Real men also don't have boobs.
This whole ordeal still feels like a dream,
And I think I could wake up any second,
Cold and alone on my futon, but male.
It's hard to believe, isn't it?
Me, Ranma Saotome, violated.
Raped by that samurai wannabe.
I have gained so many enemies,
But also so many friends:
Kodachi, Ryoga, even Nabiki treats me like a person.
Most of all, I have Akane,
Even though I don't know what she sees in me,
Except a dirty, weak girl who killed her own baby.
She says I am pure,
But Kuno*'s foul hands have roamed my body;
She says I am strong,
But I couldn't even fight to defend my innocence;
She says I am honorable,
But I had let a man** sleep in her bed.
She smiles and says love is without reason,
I had no choice but to agree with that one.
She loves me, and I love her.
That I know with all my heart.
The time I spend with her,
Is the only time I'm happy in this damnation we call life.
I take another glance at myself in the full mirror,
My flaming hair, my thin waist, and my long legs.
"Real men don't cry." my father's voice echoes in my mind.
But I'm not a real man, am I?
So I let my tears fall...
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
AN: I think I'm going to cry. It's not as emotional as I though it would be and a
little sappier so I made it Angst/Romance instead of Angst/Drama like I planned
to in the first place. Anyway, don't be offended by the ending and tell me that Ranma
is manly and honorable no matter that form he's in, 'cus I believe that, too. I meant
the ending to be taken very literal, as in he doesn't have the body of a man, so
he's not a complete, real man. Okay, remember to write a review. Please, it would
help my writing a lot if you make suggestions or comments.
Thanks, love you, CSMars
Revision: I did a little revising in the fifth stanza. Thrythlind made a comment
about giving Ranma a reason to think he's not honorable, so I did, and now it's much
better n_n
* I know Kodachi kicked Kuno out of Kuno family, but "Kuno" just sounds so
much better than "Tatawaki" or just "that rapist."
** In case you don't know, I'm talking about Ryoga.