Sara's P.O.V.
I chew my pen and tap my notebook with calloused fingers. My knees are brought up to my chest, supporting the empty pages in front of me. I should be working on a new song, but instead I find my mind wandering. Ever since I finished reading a book on the psychology of sexuality that Emy lent me, I've been spending more and more time thinking about the subject. And once my mind starts turning, I always find myself reeling with confusing thoughts. Is anyone really one hundred percent gay or straight? What determines attraction, anyways? Is it possible to be attracted to someone on only an emotional level, or only on a sexual one? What if I found myself attracted to someone I'm not supposed to, or had never seen myself with before? What would be the right thing to do?
I rip myself out of my circular thought patterns and blush bright red. I'd been staring straight at Rob's crotch the entire time without realizing it. How embarrassing. Luckily, he doesn't seem to have noticed, as he's absorbed in a music magazine. I take the pen out of my mouth to inspect the damages. Great. Half of my favorite pen is practically gnawed off, I haven't made any progress on the song I've been trying to write, and I've caught myself visually accosting my band-mate's crotch.
"Sara, come on. It's time to play the show." Tegan's voice comes from above me, and I look up an a daze. She smiles down at me warmly, and grabs my hand to drag me out of the backstage room. Our fifteen minutes of quite time before the show is over, and I find Tegan and I are the only ones left in the room. As we're leaving, Tegan squeezes past me through the narrow door, causing our chests to brush together briefly. A prickling shock runs through my entire body, especially through the one place it definitely shouldn't. I freeze to the spot, my whole face burning with shock. Tegan, a few steps ahead and apparently oblivious, turns to face me.
"Sar, are you ok? Hurry up, they're waiting for us." I follow her to the stage in a confused daze, trying not to let myself think about what just happened.