Title: Break me

Summary: he wanted hatred; he couldn't handle love, he wanted them to remember not forget, he wanted them not to be fooled by his mask- to see straight threw it but all he really wanted was to be broken so he could fix himself again- to give him a purpose to live. AU, Yaoi

Rated: M

Chapter 1: I know

A4TN: he, he another SasuGaa fic all told in Gaara's POV well mostly. And Just to warn you it won't be all SasuGaa- Gaara's apart of a lot of different pairings and no, I'm not portraying him as some kind of whore- most of them aren't anything too serious anyway and this is seat in an Alternate universe so enjoy! ^-^

P.S I know the summary sucks big time; I'm not very good at them. Oh and expect oocness and crack couples, crappy grammar and spelling and a very confusing plot!!!

P.P.S a whole new writing style as well... Well I think it is. I really like writing in first person; I find it easier to express their emotions but at the same time hard to keep to their charters so as I said before expect occness!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Naruto charters or songs but I do own the story line and some OC charters =3

"Thank you." I whispered dropping to my knees awaiting my death at the hands of this naive human- at the hands of a boy that doesn't even know I'm his brother.

'Come on get it over with already.' I silently prayed it would be quick; like the ticking of the sorter hands on a clock- one blink and you missed it but it seems my prays were also forgotten as he just stood there piecing me with his gaze.

"I'm sorry"

His blade hits the floor making my heart shank. How can he do something so cruel? I did everything in my power to hide, both of them, from the curl, disgusting truth of my true existence and this is how he repays me!

I chuckle darkly; getting to my feet- hiding all my emotions behind my perfect mask, "well then I'll make you."A grin split my lips as my bangs cast a shadow hiding my eyes from the light before the older male in front of me was thrown in to the wall across from us.

'I only exist for myself....'

He just slumped to the ground; no energy left to battle "C'mon you're making this way to easy," I hissed, japing my foot in to his throat.

'To always keep their secrets: I was both the lock and the key-'

He grasped; trying to suck in air as I plied more pressure "fight back," I growled but he didn't push me away: just gasped like a fish out of water.

'But now, when all the truth's revealed, I have no purpose in this world....... so why can't he see that?'

I growled; pulling my leg back and kicking the guy in the shoulder sending him skidding across the floor as I started to feel the world spin around me. I groaned slightly swaying as my version went blurry before losing focus altogether and leaving me to the darkness.

'So why can't you just end it?'

Beep.... beep..... Beep....

I slowly blinked open my pupiless eyes and turned my head to the sound; the heart monitor beeping at a slow and clamming pace.

'What an annoying sound.' I mused rolling over; stiffing a cry as I applied pressure to one of my many wounds.

"Glad to see you're awake." I stared at the blonde before closing my eyes and sighing in annoyance.

"I was train to handle any sort of torture and beside you already know everything."

"I know," My eye lids flew open as they search for the blonde's: reading them intensely but found nothing.

"Then why, may I ask, am I still breathing?"

"you really are cold you know that?" he sighed, running a sun kissed hand threw his spiked hair before leaning his head back and staring thoughtfully at the ceiling, "maybe it's because I turn the table?..... You're normally the one teasing me with knowing all the answers." He mused to himself, laughing slightly, as pictures of me either slitting his throat or strangling him came to my mind.

I winced sitting up but hid it like always, "that still doesn't answer my question."

He looked back at me; eyes soften ever so slightly- showing so much weakness that I almost cringe in disgust. "I said we know-"

"Then why haven't you killed me?!" I yelled flying from the bed, leads and drips being ripped out, and pouncing on the blonde. He gave a meek yelp before groaning as his head hit the floor; I fist his shirt, straddling his hips, and hoist his face closer to me so he could see how freely my anger was flowing.

"Answer me! I have taken down villages! Made people take their own life! Even racked families on the rare chance that I let them live! And with knowing all that, and much more, you still speared my life?! When I wouldn't give a second thought with taken yours!!"

"I know that... but you really didn't have a choice," he whispered; his head bowed to me making me unable to read his facial expression.

I snorted, roughly letting him go and getting up; ignoring the pain in my side that seem to magical disappear and re-appear on its own accord. "Of course I did," I said as I search for my clothes but found nothing; but a pair of boxers and a white long sleeve shirt with matching baggie pyjamas like trouser. I groaned mentally but thought it was better than wearing a hospital grown.

I pulled it off leaving me, apart from the bandagers, completely exposed; not even caring if the blonde was in the room with me.

"Then why didn't you kill me?"

I stopped; pulling my hand back from reaching for the boxers, "you still don't get it?" I shook my head at the blonde; crossing my arms and turning to see said blonde, still hasn't looked at me.

'Better show him that nothing's chance,' I thought going over to the blonde. I crouched down to eye level before lifting his head up making his eyes widen at my nude state and him, to try, and squirmed away -blushing a cherry red colure- but I didn't give him the opportunity as I smirked; pushing him back and straddling his hip once more. I might have been the smaller out of us two, and lighter, but I was natural at getting people to do what I want and making them feel powerless was just another part of my charm.

Pinning his arms down; I brush my lips against his. "Naruto....... You'll be wise to remember this..... your only alive by the mere fact; that I wouldn't gain anything by ending your life.... well apart from satisfaction that is....." with that I let the, blushing and glaring, blonde push me off him making me smirk wider as I walked back over and started to dress again before turning around to the blonde; all emotions wiped away almost instantly- leaving the blonde to wonder if that really just happened.

Slowly I lifted my hand to start spinning the seat off keys around my pointer figure and watching as the blondes eyes widen before paten down his chest and jeans. As he quickly realised that they were indeed the keys to this room.

Did he really think I was stupid enough to believe they left the door unlocked?

".....and don't, ever, assume you know me."

A4TN: So this is what I've been up to lately –mainly because my internet was down and my other laptop screen is busty- lol. I originally was going to have the next part as the beginning as it starts a couple of years after this but it didn't seem like a good Prologue.

Next part, Chapter two; why, is coming soon....

That is when I can be bothered to correct the grammar and spellings XP.