A/N Sorry this took so long, for the first time ever, i actually have chapters done before posting. It's amazing really. Anyways thank ILoveJorja for betaing.
"Eric, you're still my one and only," Sara assured herself, speaking to the picture on her desk. It was an old picture, somewhat faded and yellow, of her and a boy. Eric was the guy she had promised to love forever, who had stolen her heart and kept it for the last 23 years. And up until now, there were no doubts as to whom she loved.
But now, there were doubts. She was moving to a whole new state just for a man. She was leaving what everything she had just for him. And though any other person would admit that they had a crush on him, she just couldn't, because that would mean breaking her promise. Sara couldn't fall for another guy, it was just impossible. This was just a career boost. Well, that was her excuse anyway.
Plus, what else did she have to lose? Her friends? There weren't many. Her pride? There wasn't much to begin with. Her family? No, definitely not her family. Sara's biological family was gone. And the one person she considered to be her real family, well, she was a different story. She was the little that Sara had left.
As a single woman who wanted a child, Shannon adopted Sara after her parents died. Shannon was kind and gave her everything she ever wanted. But there was one thing Shannon never allowed Sara. And that was science.
Two months after the adoption was finalized, Sara found a book about biology and started reading it. It was one of the few times Shannon yelled at her. She told her never to have anything to do with science, that it only brought bad things and unhappiness. In grade school, Shannon only allowed her to take the barest minimum of science courses in order to graduate.
As much as Shannon hated the subject, Sara loved it. When she decided to major in physics, her mother begged her not to.
"Why do you hate science so much?"
"It brings bad memories and unhappiness."
She always wondered what had happened so long ago that made her mother hate science so much. Of course she never asked.
"Please, Sara. I beg you, don't major in Physics. It'll "
"I love it though. Why can't you understand? Please, I promise I'll be just fine."
She gave in, in the end. Sara remembered, while she took down her diploma from the wall. But it was the start of the sadness. Every time she saw her mother after that, she could see sadness lurking in her eyes. As if a ghost was haunting her, and wouldn't let her be free.
When Sara became a CSI she tried to convince her to do something else. When she refused to do so, Shannon accepted it. But she never was the same.
"I'm going to Las Vegas to work as a CSI."
"To be a scientist."
"Yes."
"Please Sara, if there's any way I can change your mind."
"There isn't."
"Science, it'll just bring you "
"Unhappiness. I don't believe that. I think science is what moves people forward."
She still loved Sara; there was no doubt in that. She was her only daughter. But the look in her eyes said, "I lost you." Sara knew she was breaking her mother's heart. But she had to move to Vegas. Why, she didn't fully understand. "Perhaps I'm looking for a reason to prove that science is good," Sara reasoned.
The last thing she did before she left her apartment for the last time was take those two pictures out of their frames and put them into a book the one of Sara and Eric from when they were young kids, and the one of her and her mother when she graduated high school. She had to keep the pictures of the two people who cared about her, the two people who loved her. She gently placed both photos in her book. "Eric, you're still the only one I love." She was going to Vegas, to start anew.
A/N The chapters get longer, i promise