A/N: Yes, I know this is really a sad one-shot but for some reason they're easier for me to write. Next time I'll try to write a happier NaLu ending but for now I hope you like this one.

I think fate likes seeing me in misery. This wouldn't be the first time someone precious to me has been taken away. At least with Igneel, or anyone else I've said goodbye too I know I'll see them, someday. But this is the first one where I feel a piece of me went missing too. It hurts I never thought I could be in this much pain. Not even when I got beat so badly I'm down on my ass, the pain then couldn't compare to the pain I'm feeling now.

Everyone in the guild and more gathered around your grave with saddened faces, flowers in hand. During your life you attracted so many people to you. It's like you were a fire and they were moths drawn to your bright, glowing flame. Now that you're dead they've all come to pay their respects. I couldn't visit your grave. It would mean accepting you're dead and I couldn't do that.

I can't do it. I can't live without you, Lucy. Since the first day I met you, somehow you changed my life. And now that you're gone I can't stand it. Lucy, when you left this earth you took apart of me with you. You weirdo, why did you go and sacrifice your life for mine? Didn't you know I was going to save you? At the last moment did you lose your faith in me? Is that why you did something so unlike you-something so reckless? Usually it's me who does all the stupid shit, not you. You're always there telling me to be careful.

This one time our roles were reversed and you were protecting me. I always protect you. I don't mind it; in fact if anyone else but me saves you it feels all wrong. If anyone but me was watching over you it doesn't feel right. When you were out of my sight I felt anxious and I had to do everything in my power to get you back. When you cry I want to make you smile. But now I won't ever see you again.

I miss your laugh, your smile, everything about you. I can't explain this huge gap in my heart that will never be filled again. Without knowing it, Lucy you took a very special place in my heart. It's like you snuck in and took up all the space you needed.

I never understood this feeling before, but I guess it's what you call love. The worst part of it all was I never got to tell you how I feel. I can tell it to your grave, but it's not the same. A grave won't smile back at me, or laugh, hell it won't even hit me. All it will do is sit there motionless as I pour my heart out.

You'll never know how much you mean to me. You'll never know how much I love your laugh, your smile, your stubbornness. I kept a photograph of you-something I'm never letting go- but it's not the same. Everything winds up reminding me of you. Nothing is the same anymore. Everything is different now.

This time I wasn't able to save you. I'm so sorry Lucy. I'm so sorry.