A love that can Never be
By PandaHatsune1991
This is my first time on and I would like to start off with a story Based of My favorite Anime Series Hakuouki. (ChizuruXHarada) Please Enjoy
"Why ...Why must I Develop these feelings now like this of After all this time I been in love with Hijikata-san But now" Chizuru Mumbled sitting in her Futon gazing at the candle light lit in the Corner of her bedroom "This can't be right I'm Already Engaged there's no way I can do such a thing" She covered her mouth holding back the tears that wanted to fall from her face, During the battle in Kyoto chizuru's heart had always belong to Hijikata she always fought by his side and he even Accepted her as a Oni. But now after leaving for shinsengumi headquarters to another land for battle another began to slowly but surely win her heart "No Matter what happens you will admit your love for me and i will protect you chizuru even If it cost me my life" The 10th Unit Captain words to her haunted her day and night after his confession to her. How could she return such feelings if she loved Hijikata "Harada-san why now"
Soon a small knock was heard at her door "Chizuru it's me are you Awake" Harada's voice spoke on the other side of the door "I'd like to talk to you" Chizuru's heart jumped from the sound of his voice as she gently got up from the Futon sliding the door open. "What is it harada it's so late". Harada gazed at chizuru with a troubled Expression on his face "Have you thought about what I said to you" He asked her rubbing the back of his head slightly showing Embarrassment. Harada didn't seem like the type to act such a way she thought it was kind of cute honestly. It happened just a few days Ago after Kazuma made another attempt to Kidnap Chizuru and Harada saved her in the nick of time. Chizuru lowered her head "Harada…I .I Have thought about it and" she bite her lower lip slightly "I won't lie to you harada you are a precious person to me, But I can't do this I love Hijikata-San He means the world to me please try and Understand we can never be anything more then friends"
Harada's eyes widen at her words "But I love you Chizuru All this time I have been holding my feeling since I knew how Hijikata felt about you, So I Supported him but now I can't anymore" He said gritting his teeth lightly "why can't you understand that!"Soon everything grew silent as chizuru eyes widen feeling arms around her and soft lips against hers "Mhmm" Harada had did the one thing he longed to do for such a long time. He placed his fingers through Chizuru's hair kissing her deeply. Coming to her senses Chizuru pushed harada away slapping his face "No harada stop it!"Her cheeks were deeply flushed as she moved away from the door as gentle tears feel from her face "Please…"She held herself lightly "Please leave Harada…" Harada touched his face looking to Chizuru "I'm Sorry" He slowly turned around sliding her door close abit "I won't give up on you chizuru". As he closed the door all the way his footsteps were soon heard faintly. Chizuru covered her mouth crying softly (How could he do that) she thought sliding down the wall (He kissed me and I…I liked it) That whole night soft whimpers were heard until she cried herself to sleep.
The next Morning Chizuru woke up from the sunlight beaming in her bedroom "Chizuru! Chizuru Wake up hurry!" A loud voice called out swinging her door open as Heisuke the youngest of the shinsengumi looked to her with a scared yet shocked Expression. Chizuru slowly sat up rubbing her tired eyes "Heisuke what is it" She asked getting up from the Futon with concern on her face "It's Harada he's been badly wounded we need your help" Chizuru eyes widen storming out of the bedroom towards Harada's room were Yamazaki and the other shinsengumi Stood. "What happened?" Chizuru asked sliding next to Yamazaki seeing Harada's shot wound on chest. "He was shot while he was patrolling late last night, He didn't come back so we went to search for him he and his troops were ambushed" Yamazaki explained as he started to work on taking the bullet out of him 'He's losing a lot of blood" Shinpachi punched into the ground "You idiot how could you be so reckless it's not like you at all "He snapped making Harada chuckled Although a sound of pain came right after as the bullet was taken out "Your Right maybe I'm losing my touch" He mumbled before chizuru began to clean his wound " It missed major parts so that's good Don't speak anymore let me bandage you up you need to rest" she said softly to him. Hijikata crossed his arms standing by the door "We need to find just who did this and what their plans are you are very lucky to be alive Harada"He said sternly but with concern. "Ahh If I'm correct we all had our slip up hijikata-san" Okita said smirking abit "Cut him some slack". Chizuru finished up his bandages and placed a cloth over harada's head. "You should be Aright now" Harada looked to him Chizuru smiling lightly "Guess you saved me again huh"He chuckled before closing his eyes slightly.
After a while as Harada was now resting chizuru alone was sitting in the room with him as the other shinsegumi went to discuss the matter knowing they had Enemy out to kill them. "I'm sorry" she whispered gripping on to her kimono sleeve "I'm the reason you got hurt all because of what I said to you last night you must of been distracted" Her Brown hair covered her guilty expression before Harada touched her face "Don't go all crying on me I was the one that tried to make a move on you and got slapped I guess I deserved it" he snickered letting his hand lay back down "Even so my feelings won't change Chizuru I love you and will always want to protect you even if I can't be with you" Chizuru looked to him as her eyes watered slightly "That's just it I can't return such feelings for you and I feel horrible you been so kind to me and I have no way to repay you" she said covering her face slightly "You have repaid me already Just by still carrying about me. He gently moved her hand from her face slowly wiping her tears away with his thumb "Even If I can't get you admit it now... I know you love me " He closed his eyes Gently "But I'm grateful with you just being near" He smiled laughing softly before tensing in pain "Ok no laughing no laughing" Chizuru giggled softly "Still livley as ever even in the condition you are in" Harada moved his red hair from his face " Yea but back to the subject Despite me being satisfied for now I will accomplish one thing no matter how long it takes sooner or later" He gazed to chizuru with determination "I will get you to admit just once that you do love me chizuru-chan" Chizuru blushed deeply at his words before she lowered her head "Harada I" She gasped as he grabbed her to lay on his chest "Just for a little while will you lay here with me please" He sounded rather tired . Chizuru felt the warmth of his chest not wanting to put much pressure on his wound behind the bandages "Alright" she laid her head down listening to his heart beat (It's like he knows my feelings completely I do love him But I am in love with another that's why this is a love that can never be, and I can never tell him ) Chizuru slowly fell asleep in harada's Arms
(Part Two Will be updated soon)