"She…" I whisper into the darkness of my room. "She was my everything, I loved her." I could feel my eyes begin to to sting, and I tried to blink the oncoming tears away. I had forbid myself to cry. I can't break, not now. I have to relive it again. I have to save her. "You can survive this Homura." I tell myself, but I know I'm lying to myself. Watching my friends die, watching Madoka die... I couldn't watch that happen again. I've finally broken. I'm empty. I can't hold the tears back anymore, and I begin to cry. "Madoka.. Please, let me see you just one more time.." I moan. "Please.." I balled my hands up against my legs. "I miss you so much."
I feel a pair arms wrap around me... Were my pleas heard? Was it really her? "Madoka..?" I whisper, hope lining my tear-stricken voice. I turn around, and my eyes widen as I see her, glowing, and in a beautiful white dress. "You're really here?" A relieved smile spreads across my face, and I fling my arms around her. "Madoka! I missed you so much." I was crying harder now, relief and happiness that came from seeing her spreading throughout my entire being.
"Homura-cha-" I cut her off with an impulsive kiss, but, realizing what I was doing, I quickly pulled away.
"I-I'm sorry.." Madoka shakes her head, and closes the gap between us once more. I smile against her lips, and kiss her back. After a while, we brake apart, and I rest my head against her chest.
"Homura-chan, you can't go back in time again, it finally turned out alright." I sigh, and glance up at Madoka.
"That's good, I don't think I could handle going through it again.." Madoka smiles sadly at me, a single tear slipping down her face.
"But I can't stay here either," she murmurs, her voice cracking. "I am a god now." I sit straight up, grabbing her by the shoulders, as tears form in my eyes again.
"What do you mean? I have to watch you leave again?"
The pinkette girl lowers her head sadly, and I can see more tears slide down her face. "You have to let me go." I begin to squeeze her shoulders.
"I can't just let you go, Madoka, you are the light in my life.." I begin to sob, and collapse into Madoka's lap. I lie there for a moment, my body shaking as I cry, and when I lift my head again, she's gone.