Fairy Tail belongs to Hiro Mashima but this Fict. belongs to me.
As a walk out of the guild I see all of Fairy Tail sprawled out of the guild's floor; either passed out from drinking or from fighting. With a heavy heart my eyes find Erza, sleeping in a chair next to where Gray and Natsu were brawling. As you have probably realized there was a party at Fairy Tail last night to celebrate Meredy and I's visit to the guild for a day. I still see Meredy cry in her sleep sometimes, Dreaming about Ultear and how we learned of her fate. But that is not why I am sorrowful at the moment. Last night I talked with Erza. After my rejection there was a wall between us. Not so large as to make it impossible for us to have a conversation but big enough to be noticeable. After a few drinks however that wall seemed to disappear. She had suggested that I stay in Magnolia under the alias of Mystogan and I had drunkenly agreed. Now that it is morning though and my thoughts are not clouded by alcohol, albeit by a small hangover, I see the reality of the situation.
If I stayed, first of all, my secret would slip out somehow, whether it be a drunk mistake or just poor judgment it would get out somehow. Second of all Meredy would be on her own; seeing as she has no real alias and Ultear is gone. Over the past seven years she has become somewhat of a little sister to me and I do not have the heart to just leave her all alone. Also, I have hurt Erza too many times, made her cry even if I was under Ultear's control there will always be that one tiny doubt, that little shadow in the back of her mind telling her that I could still the monster that killed Simon and laughed about it afterwards. We have reached a crossroads that, no matter what path we choose, will always lead back to someone leaving the other's love life. I just chose to leave and let her get on with her life.
Make no mistake though. I love Erza with all my heart. it is because I love her that I want Erza to be happy. and with a certain pink haired fireball who is currently passed out on the floor I am sure that, not only will Erza get over my absence, she will have someone to fill the place in her heart that I currently inhabit.
To make the experience as quick as possible though I am leaving before anyone wakes up. if I become a bad guy once again Natsu will no doubt try to help and protect Erza. And will be effective l for suicide watch (though I dearly hope that will not be necessary).
"Jellal? what are you doing?" says the voice that defeated me at the Tower of Heaven
"Eh? oh, Natsu." I say nervous that someone woke up yet relived that it was only Natsu.
"I... I'm leaving." I say
"Without saying goodbye to Erza at least?" he says, obviously getting mad
"Yes... my being here would not be good for Erza so- so I am leaving to try and make it less painful than it will already be." I say ashamed
"You- you!" he whispers.
"go back to sleep" I say punching him in the gut so that I look even more evil.
As I get up I catch sight of Erza again. seeing her sleeping so peacfully makes it even harder to leave her. I am also a bit surprised. this ma very well be the first time I've seen her sleep peacefully and not in a cell made of hard stone as a slave. Meredy is already waiting outside the guild sulking about not being able to say goodbye to Juvia so I lean down to Erza's ear and give her a feather-light kiss on the cheek and whisper a quiet 'I'm sorry' to her then leave.
I'm sorry beautiful titania but I must leave. Worry not though, your dragon is still there for you. even if you don't realize it.