Warning…in my opinion, this is depressing. So just watch that. This is my views on what Hitsuguya was probably thinking/feeling after he stabbed Hinamori. Just a small little drabble.

I love Hitsuguya…I felt so bad as I watched episode 293

This is why I've always tried to push you away.

This is why I wouldn't say anything to you when you were in squad 4 recovering.

Unohana asked me too…but I couldn't.

This is why.

I'm staring into your eyes right now…and their brown color is slowly dying. The adrenaline that had my blood rushing a few seconds ago withdrew, and now my blood is frozen. I'm frozen.

I tried to say I was sorry. I did. But you looked like him. Just like him.

And I needed to kill him.

For what he did to you in the past.

He was saying all these things about you before. It's why I'm in my bankia.

And now the need to kill him is even greater as I stare into your sightless eyes.

You skin is turning slightly pale…I bet if I reached out and touched it, it would be slightly cold.

Your blood is warm, though.

"Hina…mori…"

My voice is quiet. Can you even hear me?

Suddenly, Kira and Tetsuzaemon are down. Shinji and Aizen are talking, but I can't hear a word they say. I'm still staring at you back, at my sword protruding from your front, at your blood dripping on my hands. Shinji charges at Aizen. I slowly remove my sword from you body and gently float back down to the ground. I was right. You're getting colder. "Shiro…chan." Your voice is so small. So weak. Then you say the one word that finally breaks my heart all the way. "Why?" I can feel all the rage in my body release. I give out a loud, harsh battle cry and, without thinking, fly straight at Aizen. My left arm, my left leg, the left wing of my bankia…I watch them fall along side me as I slowly descend to the ground. Will we make it out of this, Momo? Soi Fon is down. Kyoraku goes down next. Shinji falls down last. "How…can…" I can't even finish my sentence. The last thoughts that filters through my brain. I'm so sorry…Momo. Forgive me. I love you.

Fin. Sorry if I depressed you :(