It's 4 am and I think my girlfriend-
No. No my ex-girlfriend is texting me for the millionth time this hour. Begging on hand and knee for forgiveness that I am positive I am out of.
Pity.
Pity that I can't seem to find the words to describe the kind of pain I've been accustom too for this last 24 hours. These wounds have cut deep and yet I'm still unsure about my actions.
Why didn't I cut her off? Why didn't I yell at her?
Throw something.
Hit him.
Tell everybody what a selfish bitch I'd caught her being. How a four year relationship ended so abruptly because I found her cheating on me with another man.
Instead I engage mindlessly in my second favorite hobby. Stargazzing. Typically the fluffy white clouds that littered Konoha's beautiful spring atmosphere kept me company during the day. But their was something about the bare simplicity of a picture still galaxy that always entrapped my mind for hours. Her image is something I'm positive I couldn't find in such a large landscape. There was some safety in such an infinite scenery.
Until I got to the moon.
Her skin was paler than the moon, and I'm even sure moonlight couldn't give the kind of glow her skin did. And her eyes. Her eyes use to shine like so many of the billions of stars looking rightback at me.
Why'd everything have to be such a fucking bother?
My phone gave a loud ring before I could gripe anymore.
"What Naruto?"
"Hey man we're going out. Let's gooooo!"
"Hn. Not exactly in the mood."
" Is this about you and-"
"Naruto, I don't wanna talk about it."
"... alright man, well the invites open if you change your mind."
" I'll talk to you tomorrow." I hung up before I got a proper response. But I'm sure Naruto didn't take it personally. I don't really picture myself as the rude type and he more or less knows when something's up with me.
But what the hell is up with me? I'm free! I'm free of a toxic relationship, I should be overfilling with joy!? But instead I'm numbing my emotions best I can to avoid my emotions overfilling. Spilling out from my eyes and over my face for the world to see.
"On second thought. Maybe a drink would be best right now."