Hello everybody!

This is my first fan fiction for a pretty long time and I hope you enjoy it.

I'm not a native speaker so I'm sorry for all grammar and spelling mistakes

I do not own anything.

The first chapter is only between Mr. Gold and Regina but the story will definitely be SwanQueen!

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„Congratulations, you just reunited mother and son. Maybe one day, they'll even invite you for dinner", said Mr. Gold mockingly, turned around and left. Once again Regina was all alone.

Finally the unshed tears threatening to slip were running freely over her cheeks. Once again she asked herself what she'd done wrong to be treated like that in first place. Once upon a time she was a little innocent girl craving for the love of her mother, her father and later of Daniel, her first love. Of course she had done cruel and unspeakable things during her reign but that was over now. She wanted to redeem herself, for Henry's sake but also for her own. Regina thought she had proofed that to Henry by bringing Emma and Mary Margret back from Fairytale Land. Maybe she actually had- but in this case Henry didn't seem to care. He just left with a short "See you later" with all the others not even caring enough to say goodbye.

Slowly she lay down on the bed where only minutes before Prince Charming had been woken up by true love's kiss. Her head hit the pillow and for a short moment Regina allowed herself to close her eyes and to think about how it was supposed to be, how she wanted it to be.

The former evil queen thought that bringing Emma and her mother Mary Margret back to Storybrook would finally change the way the people of Storybrook treated her. She couldn't endure their evil glares anymore, their quiet whispering behind her back and their hurting remarks when they were sure that Regina was able to hear them. Regina Mills thought she would win Henry back by bringing Emma back although there was the chance that also Cora could enter this world and she thought that perhaps also Emma would see her with different eyes. Right after mother and daughter were pulled through the portal after saving Regina from the wraith's attack, Regina started missing the constant fights- well, actually more the constant encounters- with Emma. She missed the way Emma could make her laugh (of course she only allowed herself to laugh when no one was watching), the way she smiled (although Emma's smiles were only reserved for her- their- son) and even the way Emma could be a constant pain in the ass. So Regina had hoped that Emma would see her now differently, not as the evil queen, but as a woman who just loved her son and also…loved Emma. Obviously her feelings weren't returned.

More and more tears soaked the pillow under her head and Regina curled up like she'd done many times as a child after her mother had lashed out at her again. What was she supposed to do now? Just allow them to treat her like that? She just wanted her happy ending, to be loved. She had tried everything to reach that aim: being good, being evil, being hard and being helpful but nothing seemed to work. Maybe there was no happy ending for her.

Mr. Gold stood in the doorway, hidden by the shadows and watched Regina cry. He now regretted his remark some minutes ago. This was hard for her, he understood that and suddenly he knew that it was now the right moment to tell Regina the truth. He sighted and walked over to the bed. Regina immediately tried to sit up and to brush her tears away but Mr. Gold pushed her back down.

"Shh…" he whispered and started to stroke consoling over the dark hair.

"Why are you doing this?" Regina asked and looked at him with big eyes.

"I'm sorry" he said "for my comment. It was not my intention to hurt you…sometimes I can't control myself. Old and nasty habit"

Regina wasn't exactly sure what was happening right now, the only thing she knew was that despite that pretty unexpected situation she enjoyed having company that seemed to care about her.

"It's okay. It's -" Regina started but was interrupted by Mr. Gold stating: "It is my fault… at least partly."

"What do you mean?"

"Regina, there is something I need to tell you. This is not easy for me to admit and it won't be easy for you to accept, okay? But please listen to me. It might explain a lot of things." Mr. Gold started and Regina was suddenly feeling pretty awkward lying there so she tried to sit up once more and Mr. Gold did not stop her this time.

"A long time ago, when we were still living in fairytale land I met a girl. She was beautiful. Her dark hair fell freely over her shoulders and when she laughed the sun rose. I met her in the village when I tried to help my father selling his goods. I immediately fell in love with her- "

"-Belle?" Regina asked curiously.

"No, not Belle. I met Belle many years later. Back to the story: this girl smiled at me with a kindness that had never been shown towards me because of my looks. She came over and we talked. We talked about everything that came to our minds, not noticing the time passing and the sun going down. It was dark when we became aware of the time that had passed. She was afraid to go back home in the dark and I told my father I would stay in the village with her. Together we went to the stables because we didn't know a better place to stay. You might imagine what happened there…between her and me. The next morning however she had left without saying goodbye or leaving a note. I didn't even know her name. Exactly nine months later, I was still living with my parents who were at that moment not at home, someone knocked on the door of our little cottage. I opened the door and there was the girl again. She smiled at me but I only felt anger rising inside me. I mean, she left me after all! She then explained to me that she had to leave and that she had been promised to a man who could provide her with a good life without worries. But she would never forget me, she promised. Then she left without giving me the chance to talk to her. In the doorway she suddenly turned around, her eyes focused on mine and her posture stiffening. She then said: "Rumple, there's something else I have to tell you. I was blessed with a daughter- your daughter. You will never see her or even talk to her but I want you to know that she exists and that she'll always remind me of you. I named her Regina.""

At that moment Regina inhaled sharply.

"What?" she asked "No, that can't be, it's impossible. My father's name is Henry! I'm not your daughter! I can't…I…"

Again tears poured out of her eyes but Mr. Gold brushed them away with his thumb.

"Please Regina, I need you to listen to me. Please…" Mr. Gold tried to calm her.

"No, no way. I can't be your daughter! I can't!" she whimpered.

"But I am and I am proud of you and I …love you", Mr. Gold admitted quietly.

At those words Regina jumped onto her feet and started yelling: "And why didn't you help me for god's sake? Was I not worth the effort? If you love someone you would risk your own life to save that person! You never helped me! Never!"

"Regina, I am sorry. I told you I was never allowed to see you. I tried to talk to your mother more than once but I couldn't convince her. I am sorry, I should have tried harder. You know, my life wasn't great as well and I felt I had more important concerns to deal with but that was a mistake. I should not have neglected you. You are my daughter and you always had a place in my heart although I did not know you, at least not until you showed up and wanted me to teach you magic. I always thought about telling you then but I never found the courage to tell you because I did not know how you would react. I guess I was afraid of rejection. Even in Storybrook I did not gather the strength when you needed me more than ever. But I tried to ease your pain with Henry. You love him so much and I am sorry for the way he and everyone else treat you. You've truly changed, I can see that. Please, Regina, believe me: from now on everything will be different. I will help you to pick up the pieces remaining of your life and I will try to put them back together, I promise."

Mr. Gold reached out for Regina hoping that she'd accept his offer. He had never been that honest with anyone in his life and suddenly he felt how much his daughter actually meant to him. Regina herself did not know how to deal with that confession. For a whole minute she just stood there and thought about her situation. She then decided that actually her situation could just improve and so she nodded and accepted his offered hand.

So that was the first chapter and I hope you like it! Please tell me if I shall continue it or not!

I'm also looking for a beta- reader so if anyone's interested please contact me!

I also appreciate constructive criticism!