Watching You
'I messed up. I never knew I was capable of making that big of a mistake. I guess I should explain. I'd be confused too'
' It all started last year. It happened the night I decided to go to the party Madeline was having…'
**Flashback**
' I had talked to Paris until 10:30, and then she left. I decided I wanted to sit
down and read. So I found a comfortable chair in a corner and began to read.
Soon after Summer walked in front of me, closely followed by Tristan. To cut
the story short, they argued about Summer being with other guys and then they
broke off. Tristan looked so hurt as he watched Summer walk away. He looked
straight at me before leaving the room. The party then got very loud, so I decided
to move into a quieter room. That's when I found him.
[Rory walks into a room and finds Tristan sitting at the piano]
RORY: Oh sorry.
TRISTAN: No problem.
R: I'm sorry.
T: About what?
R: About you and Summer.
T: I don't want to talk about Summer.
R: Ok. How'd you do on that biology test?
T: What?
R: The test. It was hard wasn't it?
T: Yeah it was hard.
R: I got a B+
T: What are you doing?
R: Talking about the test.
T: Why?
R: Because you said you didn't want to talk about Summer.
T: I don't.
R: Ok, so I moved to biology. Sorry did you want to talk about Spanish?
T: You just loved it, didn't you?
R: Loved what?
T: Seeing me get nailed like that. Must have been a great moment.
R: Not really.
T: Please. You loved it, she loved it, everybody loved it.
R: I did not love it.
T: I really liked her too.
R: Yeah I know.
T: So where's your boyfriend tonight?
R: He's...not my boyfriend anymore.
T: Why not?
R: He didn't want to be.
T: Idiot.
R: So's Summer.
T: You think you'll get back together?
R: He was pretty set in his decision.
T: When did it happen?
R: Yesterday.
T: Wow.
R: It was our three-month anniversary.
T: That sucks.
R: Yeah it does suck. Do you think you guys will?
T: No, no. No, no, no, no, no.
R: So no?
T: No. Hey, I'm sorry I gave you such a hard time for a while.
R: Oh that's ok.
T: It is?
R: Well no, but you're sad.
T: Yeah well. I am sorry.
R: I accept your apology.
T: Oh man, it's a great party huh?
R: Yeah not bad. It gave me a chance to catch up on my reading.
T: You are very odd, you know that?
R: Thank you.
T: You're welcome. [he kisses her. Rory pulls away crying] I'm sorry, what did I do? Did I bite your lip or something?
R: No it's not you. It's just - I have to go. [runs out crying.]
**End flashback**
' We kissed. It may not seem that big of a deal but, it was. I could hardly believe it when he was slowly inching towards me. He was so gentle with me. The kiss was different then the ones Dean and I shared. I can't explain it.'
' But then I made my first mistake I ran away crying. My next mistake was what happened the next day. I lied when I said it was a nice kiss. It was an amazing kiss, but I didn't want to get hurt. After that, anything I did that concerned him, I made a mistake.'
' So you can see why I am upset. I'm upset with myself for being such…such an idiot. I'm upset with him for not pushing the subject. I'm just as upset that I didn't push the subject. I know if I could do it over again, I would.'
Rory Gilmore's head snapped up as the football landed next to her knee. Her trance broken she looked up, to see who was coming to get the football.
As he bent down to retrieve the football, he looked at her. Smiling he wondered what she was thinking.
" Hey Rory."
" Hey Tristan."
" Sorry about that."
" No problem."
Tristan turned and walked away, unaware of Rory's watching eyes.
' I'm so stupid. Give it up. He doesn't care.' Rory thought. ' That doesn't make it any easier to deal with. It doesn't help it hurt less.'