So I decided to start and new fanfic! I will finish the other one promise! But here is the new one hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything! AND mild language.

Floating in darkness.

Nothing but stars and me.

But yet I longed for something.

Or someone.

I wanted him.

But I didn't know who he was.

I don't even know who I am.

But I know I want him with all my heart.

I want him to hold me and kiss me and whisper stupid idiotic things in my ear.

But who is he?

Who am I?

After what seemed like forever a large star began to flash,

As it beckoning me…

Like an idiot I pushed past other stars and reached for the star.

Just…

One…

More… inch…

I woke up with long, thick tubes attached to my arm. I shook my head and winced in pain, I was dripping with sweat and my hands were intertwined with the blue blanket over me. "Where the hell am I?" I asked although I could see no one around me. The room I was in was small and painted white. Four chairs lined up perfectly next to a large window that took up most of the wall. A tall man with perfectly tanned skin and bright green happy eyes flooded into the room. "Lovi?!" He chuckled tears filling his eyes, he quickly ran to me and pulled me into a tight hug. "Who the hell are you?!" I yelled and pushed him away, I could feel my cheeks burning. "L-Lovi?" He choked. "No… No Lovi you know me!" He shook my shoulders. "No I don't! I don't! Let go of me I don't know you!" I screamed and pushed him away. His bright happy eyes filled with regret and sadness.

"Lovi… my beautiful Lovi…" he mumbled and stared at me tears spilling on to his cheeks. "Doesn't even know my name…"

"Antonio~" A cheerful voice called from the hallway.

In walked a thing boy that looked like he was only 16 or so, he wore a huge smile yet his eyes told a different story. At his side was a tall broad shoulder man with slicked back blonde hair and sea blue eyes, I already hated him. I felt like I needed to know these people. Like I needed to love them and hold them, but I didn't even know they're names.

"FRATELLO!" The small boy shouted and hugged me tightly and began to cry rivers. "I thought I would never see you again after the car accident, and the doctor said you wouldn't ever wake up but obviously he lied to us and you're awake! But he also said if you were to wake up ever you probably won't know who I am but you know me right fratello?" the small boy released me and I gasped for air after a moment of his wide brown eyes staring me down I turned to him. "I'm sorry… who are you?" I asked. "Ha ha very funny Lovino! I thought you were serious!"

The room fell silent and the tan man began to sob in one of the four chairs next to the window. The only thing that could be heard the constant beeping of the heart monitor.

"H-He knows who I am right Antonio?" the boy asked tears now whelming in his eyes.

The tan man who I now knew as Antonio shook his head.

The boy backed away from the bed slowly like I had the plague and into the blonde man's arms. "Luddy… He doesn't know me… He…" The boy sobbed into "Luddy's" arms. "I know Feliciano… it's gonna be ok I promise." Luddy nodded in reassurance to Feliciano.

Antonio looked at me as if pleading to have some memory of him even if it was short or the worse memory, just something other than a blank piece of paper.

Feliciano stared at us for a moment and then back at Luddy. "Luddy and I are going out into the hallway ok Antonio?" Antonio nodded slowly as Feliciano and Luddy exited the room.

An awkward silence fell over the room as he stared at me intently.

"Stop staring at me idiot!" I yelled after at least five unbearable minutes passed.

"I love you Lovino."

I stared at him in disbelief. My heart was pounding hard and I continued to stare at him until he grabbed my hand and kissed it with tears still streaming down my face.

"I'm so sorry Antonio… I just… I don't know you… I only know your name because of the fact that that Feliciano kid said it… I am sorry."

He bit his lip and stared at me for a long moment before letting go of my hand and standing up. My heart dropped, I grabbed his hand again I don't know why but ever since I first saw him walk through the door I wasn't scared anymore. I felt safe and I didn't want that to end.

"I know it's not your fault… it's my fault I should never had… I just love you… please… please just know I love you." He sat back down only inches from my face. I nodded slowly. "You're a real idiot." I mumbled and turned my head so he didn't see me blush.

"Oh god… you didn't change… thank god." He chuckled. "Now that your awake I am sure we can get you outta here soon." He smiled widely and wiped away his tears. I don't know why but when he cried I felt like I had just kicked a new born baby. Judging by the fluttering in my stomach when he smiled I was in love with him too before all this.

"FINE THEN LEAVE I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!" A man who had shaggy brown hair and looked a lot like Feliciano shouted at another who was tall and tan standing by the door. I couldn't tell who they were because of the dark shadows over they're features. But what I could tell from the voice that spoke he was sobbing.

"I don't want to leave!" the other snapped.

"THEN WHY DON'T I JUST LEAVE?!" the sobbing man cried.

"Lovi! Don't go please I love you!" the other pleaded.

My heart sank as the dark shadow slowly faded away from the two faces. Antonio and what must have been myself. I looked scared. Like a child lost at the super market desperate for his mother, or in this case Antonio.

I shook my head why would I do that to Antonio? Why would I want to leave him? From what I was witnessing he loved me and I loved him… why would I just leave?

Ii tried to move forward but my body wouldn't let me. 'Just watch...' a voice in the back of my head whispered.

"I am leaving whether you fucking like It or not." The other me cried and moved towards the door.

"Please… no Lovi I am nothing without you don't leave me." Antonio pleaded and grabbed the other me's hand pulling him away from the door.

"I'm sure your precious Bella could easily replace me." Lovi said bitterly.

And without another word the other me left Antonio who looked like he was being ripped apart from the inside out.

I woke up shaking and pulled my legs up into a hug gently rocking back and forth. I didn't know why that hurt me so bad it was just a dream… right?

Some part of me told me that that was no dream. But I would never want to do that to Antonio; although I barely knew the guy, I figured he loved me a lot and I just broke him without even looking back.

But why would he even want to see my face ever again? Why would he want to visit me in the hospital? Maybe that was just the first time he came. Maybe he came out of guilt. Maybe it was all just a dream.

My thoughts were interrupted as a loud snore from the corner of the room caught my attention.

"H-Hello?" I sniffled quickly wiping away the tears left over from the dream.

"L-Lovi…. W-Why…"

It was Antonio. Why was he in my room at…?

I looked at the clock. It was two in the fucking morning and he was sleeping in a chair that fucking idiot!

I got up out of my bed and walked over to Antonio. Most of my IV's were taken out. I wonder when that I happened…

"Toni." I said softly hoping all the nurses were gone so they didn't see me out of my bed.

Antonio stirred for a moment and went back to mumbling. Soon tears began to drip down his cheek.

"Toni." I repeated shaking him slightly. "Wake up!" I whisper screamed.

His eyes blinked open slowly and came into focus.

"Lovi! Why are you out of your bed?!" Antonio asked wide eyed.

"I'm fine you fucking bastard. Why are you sleeping in a chair?!" I demanded. "And crying for the matter."

Antonio avoided my eyes and looked at the bed. "Lovi go back to bed I am fine."

I frowned. "Obviously not you're the one who was crying in your sleep!"

He stood up and looked down at me. "Was not." He chuckled and picked me up bridal style, and carefully carried me to bed.

"Put me down you stupid Bastard!" I yelled.

"Tsk tsk little Lovi you barely know me don't call me such rude things."

I rolled my eyes. "Shut up I have the right to freedom of speech."

"You sound like Alfred." Yet another name I felt like I should have known but I couldn't place it anywhere in the jumble of information running through my head.

"Who?" I asked dumbly.

Antonio frowned and laid me in bed. "Need a cuddle buddy?" He smiled brightly changing the subject.

"Hell no." I rolled my eyes.

"Aw..." Antonio pouted.

I thought back to moments ago when Antonio was crying and a sting of regret punched me in the gut.

"Lay down idiot." I growled. "As long as you tell me why you were sleep crying."

Antonio carefully laid next to me and wrapped his arms around me. It felt weird I must admit mostly because I didn't remember this man at all and now I was cuddling with him. But I figured he need this, he needed me right now.

"Well I was having a dream that's all little tomate. Don't worry about me." He whispered sweetly into my ear that sent shivers down my spine.

Man this guy. If I loved him before he must have been a super genius. Maybe he was planning on making me fall again… that ridiculous! Why would I be in love! I barely know him! He seems like a huge idiot… with a big bright smile… and perfect emerald eyes… shut up stupid idiotic brain!
"Lovi?"

I was snapped out of my argument with myself by Antonio's soft voice.

"Yes?" I answered as casual as possible.

"You spaced out." He chuckled.

I nodded slowly. Antonio sighed longingly. I wish I knew him, I wish I knew everything about him and me. But I don't and I think that hurts Antonio more than it hurts me, which upsets me because he doesn't deserve someone like me… he deserves someone who remembers him, who can truly say 'I love you with all my heart' every morning. But then again maybe that's what he wants from me. Maybe he want me to wake up with him in a large open room cuddled all up in his arms and whisper that every morning. Maybe he wants me to do that with our kids and grandkids… maybe I will do that… I smiled to myself at that thought, my inner sap was getting the best of me and I loved it, I mean I hated every bit of it. (Liar…)

"Lovi… I know I must be confusing you… and making this really hard for you but I want you to know I still love you more than anything else in this entire world…. And I hope you sleep well… and I hope you remember me one day but I will wait every day of my life if I have to until you remember… because I. love. You."