so this is just a side project i am doing. i'm not sure if i will continue this story. so it might not be that good.

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN SOUL EATER. i only wish that i did.

i thank my friend Veronica for inspiring me to write this from her song she is writing. :)

CHAPTER ONE

Soul's POV

He couldn't have done this! There's no way that he would do it!

I look at him thinking that this might be the last time that I would ever see him. I can't believe that he would do something like this. All I can do is stare at him. I feel so useless. I wish that I could have been there to stop him. I feel the tears come to my eyes. I try to blink them away but they keep rolling down my cheek.

"Soul?" I turn my head to see Lord Death looking at me.

"Y-yes?" I manage to say between my tears.

"Are you okay?" he asks me still with his cheery voice.

"Yea. I'm ok." I lie. I am not fine. I am scared out of my fucking mind. I don't want this to be it. I look away from him.

"Stein said that they won't know if he will be able to live for a few more hours. They said that when he cut himself it was close to a large artery and that he has little chance to live."

"W-what? But he has to live. He can't die! Not like this!"

"There's no reason to yell. It won't help him." Another voice said. I look up and see Maka, Black*Star, Tsubaki, Liz and Patty at the door.

"Why are you here?" I ask them.

"Cuz we're his friends too. Do you know how he's doing?" Tsubaki asks me.

"No, we don't." I say to her but looking past her, not wanting to make eye contact.

"Soul, it's gonna be okay. He will make it." Maka says to me.

"Stein said that it is very unlikely that he will live."

"He will live. He's not one to…" She couldn't finish that sentence.

"..To give up? Isn't that why we're here?" I ask her.

"You know what I mean. He is strong enough to live through this. He's a shinigami for crying out loud. He'll be alri-"

"How are you so sure that he will make it? Maybe he won't be 'alright.' He might die! So just stop saying that things are 'alright' when he is more likely to die!"

"Soul! Don't say stuff like that!" Tsubaki looks at me like she is about to cry.

"Maybe you should go, Soul. You've been here for a whole day now. I'll take you home." This came from Maka.

"No. Just leave me alone. I need to stay."

"Soul, I have a question to ask about my son." Lord Death says.

"O-okay. What is it?"

"Why would he want to kill himself? Be truthful about this. I need to know."

"I…I think it's because people made fun of him for being gay. I don't think that he cou-"

"Excuse me, I don't mean to interrupt." I see look at the door and see Stein there. "We know a little more about if he will live or not." The look on his face tells me already that he will not live.

"Is he gonna be alright?"

"Will he make it?"

"No, he will not make it. We think that he might live until morning at the latest."

"Soul." Maka looks at me
"I'm so sorry. There's nothing that we can do for him."
"I know how yo-"

"No you don't!" I interrupt Maka. "You don't know how I feel! You don't love him like I do! You hardly even like him! So please just leave. And take everyone with you!"

"I don't…"
"Maka I think we all should leave now." Lord Death says. "Alright kids, let's leave them…alone."

When they all leave I sit down and cried. I don't try to stop the tears. He can't die. Not now, not like this

Kid's POV

Black. That's all I see. Nothing but black. But I can hear. I am still alive inside.

"Kid, I don't know if you can hear me. But I just needed to tell you." I hear someone say. I know right away that it's Soul's voice. "I love you Kid! And I don't want you to die. Please. Just try to stay alive."

I am trying to talk. I am trying to open my eyes. I am trying to move. But I can't. 'I love you too Soul. I think to myself. 'I'm sorry. Sorry for all that I've done. I only wish that you could hear me. I am so sorry.'