Chapter 1: Chapter 1

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Hello guys! Well I have a lot of spare time on my hands so I decided I would go back and make some changes to my old stories. Hope it's improved some. Thanks for reading!

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Yugi fell to his knees sobbing when the doctor told him the news. "What? H…he can't be gone" he sobbed.

Atem is gone? His fiancé is gone? The only person who he had ever truly loved is gone? Just killed himself without leaving a reason for his friends? This has to be a mistake, he can't be gone we were going to get married after the tour. He can't be gone. You can't be gone! Yugi sobbed brokenly and slammed his fists onto the floor.

"I'm sorry, but he had taken to many pills. He was too far gone for us to help him" the doctor said before he walked away. Yugi looked around at his friends and Atem's parents.

"Where is Yami?" he asked in a quiet voice, more tears running down his face. Joey got up and ran out of the room to find his friend while Serenity and Tea bent down in front of Yugi.

"Yugi, I know it hurts but he's in a better place now. He's not in any more pain" Tea said trying to comfort her best friend.

Yugi shook his head and looked up at her. "I know but it doesn't make it hurt any less Tea, he was the only person I ever fell in love with. Atem is what kept me strong. Why didn't I notice something was wrong? I could have stopped this if I had only paid more attention to him…He was my fiancé and I didn't even notice something was wrong!" Yugi said before breaking down crying again.

He didn't notice when Tea and Serenity moved away and another body sank to the floor in front of him. "Yugi…"

Yugi looked up into tear filled deep violet eyes. "Yami I'm sorry, I should have realized something was wrong…. I should have done something…." He broke down crying again.

Yami pulled Yugi into a hug and squeezed him. "Yugi…it isn't your fault, I'm his little brother I should have known too…." He didn't finish before he broke down sobbing, burying his head in Yugi's hair.

The rest of the group had never seen Yami cry. In a way it just made it sink in more to see him broken. Serenity turned to Duke and cried into his shoulder. Tea turned to Tristan, Joey hugged Seto and cried silently while the brunette buried his face in Joey's hair to hide his own tears. Mokuba sat down and cried into his hands, while Ryou ran into Bakura's arms and Malik turned to Marik.

The only sound that was heard was the sobbing of a group of friends that just lost a very special member of their group.

An hour later the group had cried themselves out and decided to retreat back to the tour buses. Yugi gripped Yami's hand as he hauled him up off the floor of the waiting room. "Yami…. what am I supposed to do now?" he asked as the group made their way down the hallway. "I feel so lost without him…"

Yami looked at Yugi for a second before looking down at his feet. "Well I don't know Yugi. I guess we just have to go on with the tour and move on. He would want that." Yami whispered with a tear falling down his face.

Yugi looked surprised. "How are we going to do that?...Atem was the leader, the one everyone comes to see…..we just center around him."

Yami smiled at Yugi sadly. "We'll figure it out Yugi. We always do." He said as he opened the door to the bus.

Yugi climbed in slowly. "I hope you're right….."

After everyone left the hospital and returned to their tour buses, Yugi, Yami, Seto, Mokuba, Joey, Ryou and Malik were just relaxing. Yugi laying his head in Yami's lap with Yami stroking his hair. Yugi had pulled himself together enough that he wasn't crying anymore but he was still broken. The numbness had not become any less crippling. They were all trying to liven up by smiling while recalling different memories with Atem, in a small way it was helping the group.

"Remember the time me and Atem played dungeon dice monsters against each other? He lost and threw a dice at me so hard it cut my forehead." Seto recalled, running a finger across the small scar above his eyebrow.

Ryou smiled, "Or the time he told me my hair needed a trim because I was beginning to look like a troll?"

Everyone laughed slightly at the memories they were discussing, keeping the former musician alive.

Joey looked over at Yugi who hadn't said a word since they all began talking. "Are you okay Yug?" Joey asked with a slight smile.

Yugi slightly nodded and sat up. "I guess you can say that…."

Joey nodded, "we'll get through this Yug, trust me. We all have each other's backs."

Yugi smiled. "Thank you so much guys. I just feel like a part of me has been cut off…..I don't know what I'd do without all of you and I mean that." He turned to look at Yami. "Yami can I talk to you for a minute?" he asked, Yami stared at him with a puzzled expression for a minute before nodding as he stood up with Yugi, and followed him out of the room.

They all watched as Yugi led Yami to his room and shut the door.

"Do you think we should listen?" Joey asked looking between Seto and Serenity. Seto shook his head and Serenity smiled and stood up. "I am" she said as she walked out of the room. Joey just shook his head and leaned into Seto's chest. "Don't get caught."

Yugi led Yami into his room and pulled him over to sit down on the bed. Yami looked over at the smaller teen beside him, a concerned look on his face. "So Yugi what did you want to talk to me about?"

Yugi looked down as he twiddled his thumbs, a torn look on his face.

"Yugi what's bothering you? You can tell me anything." Yami said, taking one of Yugi's hands in his own.

Yugi hesitated before he spoke. "Yami, do you think he would still be here if I didn't kill our baby?" Yugi mumbled.

Yami's face grew hard and serious. His jaw tightening, as he stared at Yugi. "How could you say that?" He asked in a very calm but angry voice.

Yugi looked down at his feet, avoiding Yami's gaze. "W…ell he was so happy when we found out. But after I fell off the stage in L.A. and lost the baby he didn't act like himself anymore. So it's…it's my fault he's gone" Yugi mumbled.

Yami shook his head, gaze now fixated on the wall. "Yugi it's not your fault you fell off the stage, It was an accident. Accidents happen. We were all devastated but things happen, you can't blame yourself for anything" He turned and brought Yugi's face up to look him in the eyes. "My brother loves you more than anything in this world, and don't you dare blame yourself for any of this."

Yugi sighed, tears filling his eyes. "An accident that I could have prevented…Yami I just can't help it….it's all my fault."

Yami shook his head. "Yugi the miscarriage was months ago, Atem had gotten better." He said standing up from the bed. "Yugi don't you dare blame yourself for this! This was Atem's mistake and decision, he's the one to blame. He's the one who left us!" Yami yelled while stalking over to the door.

"Yami where are you going?"

"Out" Was the only reply he got before the door was yanked open and slammed behind the teen.

Yugi let out a sob and fell back onto the bed. Heart breaking a little more, if that was even possible.

Outside the door Serenity was listening silently. She wasn't expecting it when the door was opened and Yami was suddenly standing in front of her. A very pissed off expression on his face. He stared at her for a minute before brushing past her and all the way out of the tour bus, slamming the door behind him.

She walked back into the living room and sat down beside Joey, who was looking at her confused. "Serenity what happened?" he asked, referring to the very mad Yami who just stalked past him.

She shook her head, still confused herself. "Well….Yugi said if he hadn't hurt the baby, then Atem wouldn't have gotten depressed and killed himself…. When Yami tried to tell him differently he was still blaming himself. I heard whispering, Yami got up and left Yugi in the room. I thought he was going to say something to me but he didn't, he just walked away." She explained, resting her arms on her thighs and holding her chin.

Joey and Seto sat up with wide eyes. "How could he do that? It's not his fault. But what's wrong with Yami? I mean he doesn't usually get that mad that easily, especially not at Yugi." Seto said shaking his head. Joey nodded in agreement to his boyfriend.

Serenity shrugged. "Yami has never acted like this. He's always the understanding one."

Joey nodded, "well, he has just lost his brother, broke up with his girlfriend a week ago, and his life has never been easy. Maybe he just finally broke."

Serenity stood up with a sigh and stretched. "I just don't know how our managers expect us to go on with the tour without Atem. He was who everyone wanted to see. Not us." She said.

Joey sighed and stood with his sister, looking down at Seto." Let's get some sleep."

Serenity nodded, "I'll check on Yugi." She said walking over and quietly opening the door to see a sleeping Yugi, she smiled sadly. "He's asleep. Poor thing must be exhausted."

Joey smiled. "We all are."

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