To my dearest lover,
My words aren't really rhyming these days, and I wonder, do you notice? Hichigo it's cold out there, but once again I doubt you notice. I called you the other day, but when you answered…I heard him there. Is he the one you left me for? He's the bastard I cannot bare. I'm writing you this, to let you know Hichigo. If I ever see you. With him. Ever ever ever in life. I'll kill him on the spot, and then maybe you'll be mine? No this is just pointless; I bet you won't even open this letter. And if you do, would you care? Would you call? Would you promise you'd be there? Just like last time, when you said that you'd be there but there you were. Out with him. Always him Hichigo, always. Does he make you happy? I couldn't ever understand how he does; just look at him just look at you. You don't even go together well. Do you know how lonely I am without you around when I cry? It hurts; did you know I threw away that movie because I can't watch it without you by my side? Do you know why my words don't rhyme anymore Hichigo? It's because when you left, the music just stopped. Along with my heart, because it left with you. I bet you dropped it, when you got on your train back to that place so far away. Do you miss me? Do you miss my face? I threw out all the pictures, because seeing you there; sitting there in those pictures just reminds me that you're gone. Look Hichigo, I know it's not worth the words but I want you to come home. What ever happened to us getting married? Are you going to leave me high and dry? Hichigo I bought a ring for you the other day. You should have seen my face as I rushed off the bus into the apartment. I called around for you, but I was so delusional. Why did you go Hichigo? Do you enjoy to see me fall on my face? I can't recall the last time I've slept, because I won't even go in my room. Not with all your things there, not with that bed there. Did you know, my arms aren't pretty like they used to be? There are scars all over them these days, and I can't stop from making more. I just need to, I need to do something. I can't watch the tv, because it reminds me how you aren't there to hold me. I haven't eaten, did you know that Hichigo? Oh wait, of coarse you didn't because you don't acknowledge when he tells you that I called. My stomach is so horrible skinny, I'm afraid, was I too fat for you Hichigo? Is he prettier then me? What's he got that I never had? Remember when we first met, and our first kiss? You said you never wanted me to be unhappy. Well I am Hichigo, I'm so fucking unhappy and guess what Hichigo. You aren't exactly making it better. Answer the phone, is it even your phone anymore? I bet you gave it away, but why? Do I repulse you to that degree that you must block me away my lover?
I love you,
Love Ichigo K.
P.S. You probably should write back, if you exactly want me not to die. Please? I'd love it if you did, it would be so great. I love you Hichigo, Just say you love me too.