How was I to know?
How was I to know that I'd leave you all too soon?
Leave you to that dreadful home,
Your lost and shattered childhood.
Please understand that I need to find my missing past.
Something's erased within me that I must replace.
I send you with full hopes that you will be okay.
That someday you will forgive me,
For all this pain I've caused.
Each time I see you I see a strength that reminds me
Of someone I can't truely remember.
A forgotten face, faded words,
And someone's near embrace.
I leave you with the promise that
I will return someday.
Until then, use that strength
That has carried you this far.
And yet now things are different,
For something's stolen my life.
An enemy that preys on my mind,
That leaves you so far in the past.
And now I must question myself,
As I sit in the back of my mind,
How was I to know that I'd be gone so long?
