The blood calls to me no more. I have ruined all because I was too stubborn to see how magnificent you are. I was privileged to be yours for awhile, feeling the warmth of your touch and seeing your face light up. It was all I lived for. You and your love was my turning page, marking the end of an old and exhausted chapter and the crisp new start of a new one.
I surrendered who I've been for who you are
For the space of ten breaths, I feel you next to me, holding my hand, radiating love. Ten breaths. That's all I allow myself. We once had the span of forever stretching ahead of us but I was blinded by love and it hurt you. I can no long live with myself.
I surrendered who I've been for who you are
But I don't know I don't know how to be brave any more and there is a doubt in me that I've never felt before. I die every day, hoping that today will be the last day of this self imposed death sentence, and every day, nothing changes. Time stands still without. I close my eyes and imagine you standing in front of me, smiling with your arms open, longing to have me hold you again.
I surrendered who I've been for who you are
I have loved you for a thousand years and I always continue to love you for a thousand more. But it is because of that love that has forced me to take a step back and remove myself from your life. I die everyday that I am not with you but I cannot think of the torture I live because of what I've done to you.
I surrendered who I've been for who you are
There is no religion to save even if I did believe that I could be saved. I walked out the door and I turned my back on the sunlight, your sunlight. Now, every day it rains. Every day I look outside, all I see is rain, pouring from the sky. You could never say goodbye and let me go, but I was the one to say goodbye and let you go and now, every waking moment of my wretched existence, I regret my decision for all I see is you.
I surrendered who I've been for who you are
A/N - When I wrote this, I was largely inspired by the Breaking Dawn part 1 soundtrack. If you have listened to it, you should be able to see some of the lyrics in the different sections. Enjoy! Reviews are always welcome!
