Note: I don't own rights to Dear Evan Hansen or Hetalia. OOC characters.
" Have you been writing those letters to yourself? Dear Emil Steilsson, today's going to be a good day and here's why, " Emil's mother asked him. "I started one," Emil responded truthfully."Those letters are going to help you. They're going to help build your confidence," she told the sixteen year old. "I guess," he said, in a rather resigned tone. "It's okay, can't we just have an optimistic outlook though? It wouldn't hurt," his mother said. Ásla Steilsson was a part-time nurse who subsequently went to law school at night. His mother being divorced, Emil switched from household to household every week. Glad he was at his mom's house. "Mom, I'm leaving!" Emil called from the bottom of the stairs. "Have a good day!" She answered back.
In a different house, the sequence of events before school were much different.
"Li Xiao Chun! Nî méiyôu còguò dì yī tiān!" Li Xiao or Leon was getting berated from his oldest brother for waking up late. "Yeah whatever Yao," Leon told the distressed Asian. "It's the first day Leon. Also we're leaving, so hurry up," his older brother, Kiku reminded the teenager. Kiku had already graduated, but drove the younger ones to school before heading to class. Driving up to the building, Leon and his other siblings got out. He had five other siblings. two girls and three brothers. Yao already graduated college, taking most of the adult responsibility. Going to school was not Leon's favourite thing to do. Grumbling, he walked into the building not noticing the pale student in front of him. Of course he had to run into him. Just great. Leon thought. Not an ideal way to start off this shitty year. The boy he had run into had very unique features. Pale blond-silverish hair and violet eyes. Not wanting to make this any more awkward, Leon mumbled a half-hearted apology and helped him up. Walking a bit faster, Leon thought about the student. What was his name again? That's right, Emil Steilsson. Didn't his brother Lukas Bondevik go here too? Leon had no clue why Emil was of his concern anyways. As a very shy person, Emil had practically no friends. No one really knew much about him except that his brother was very successful. Leon checked his phone, the bell would ring in two minutes. At least his first and favourite class, world history was first.
After first period, the day flew by. Soon lunch had already come around. Leon and his siblings just had to have the same lunch period. Great. As he was walking into the loud and slightly chaotic room, his eyes flickered past a certain violet eyed person. Im Yong Soo was already yelling his name, Leon kept walking.
Emil sat at an abandoned lunch table, just sitting there. Not eating his lunch, thinking. Would anyone honestly notice if I disappeared? Does anyone care? No. I'm such a burden to everyone. Even Lukas doesn't contact me. It's like I'm waving through a window. But would anyone be waving back? Emil pulled himself out of his depressing thoughts to notice his surroundings. Too many voices, too many people. He suddenly stood up, walking over to the trash cans and dumped his tray. Heading over to the computer lab, Emil felt like he needed to write. Sitting himself down at one of the schools' computers, Emil seemingly ignored the amber eyed figure across the room. Feeling ridiculous, Emil just started typing.
If you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around, do you ever really crash or even make a sound. Will I ever make a sound? Did I even make a sound. Its like I've never made a sound. Will I ever make a sound. Cause when you're always on the outside, when you're always looking in, can you really be more than you've always been. Because I've learned to slam on the break, before I even turn the key. Before I make the mistake, before I lead with the worst of me. I'll never let them see the worst of me. I'm waving through a window.
After typing, Emil had ment to click 'delete' but being the person that he is clicked 'print' out of all the fucking buttons. Emil shot up, speed walking tword the printer. Hoping no one would see the paper. Unluckily for him, that the amber eyed someone was sitting right by the printer. "Um, could.. could you give that back?" Emil stuttered out. Communication was his enemy, that being very obvious since a very young age. The figure remained silent, reading the paper. Emil cringed on the inside, never liking it when people saw something personal. "What is this?" The person asked, much to Emil's horror. "Well, ah, that's for uh, something for a class..?" Emil inwardly slapped himself, did he really just end it as a question. The teen was about to answer, but coincidentally the warning bell rang, signaling that both boys had to go to class. Emil was about to say something to the retrevier of the paper, except that he wasn't there. God no, that was Leon. A somewhat popular student, even though mouthing off to teachers seemed to be a hobby of his. Emil's anxiety carried on for the rest of the day, but diminished slightly when he got home. His mother was at work and wouldn't come home untill late at night, so Emil was left in blissful silence.
Leon felt pretty guilty for keeping the paper he'd taken from Emil. He had questions and wanted answers. Not like he was going to get any. When Leon arrived home, he walked into his room and set his backpack on his bed. Reaching into it, he pulled out the paper and reread it. Unsure of what to make of it, Leon set it on top of his desk.
A/N: I hope you enjoyed the first chapter of 'Dear Emil Steilsson'. Very creative title I know, *insert sarcasm*. See what I mean, this follows practically nothing of the musical's plot. Apologies of OOC characters. Emil's father will be introduced later. Thanks for reading!
Translations:
Nî méiyôu còguò dì yī tiān!- You are not missing the first day! (Traditional Chinese)
Please correct me if I'm wrong on any translations. Thanks again!
