I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho.
I had to watch him come home and pretend nothing was wrong. I had to look the other way when I saw pain stretch across his face, I was his mother dammit! I was supposed to protect him shelter him and take care of him. I try so hard to do so but it does not work. He cares for me as though I'm the only one worth anything, and it worries me.
From birth he has been different and I accept that. He doesn't seem to though, at least not enough to tell me anything. It is a burden no mother should have to carry. It has been eased but not lightened. He no longer looks down upon me but I fear he has not opened up any more.
Some would call me willfully ignorant but I know better. After all I am the one who raised him. I know him better then he thinks I do. What I always see makes me painfully proud but it also terrifies me. At times he seems ancient and almost perfect but I can see he loves me. I can't see what troubles him but I can see the effects.
To be honest it baffles me, how loyal he is to me. If he left me behind he would be able to do so much more. I suppose that makes me selfish as I do nothing to discourage him from staying with me. He never goes out with friends or even out to do anything even bordering on recreational. If he is not with me he is in the garden or the school's greenhouse. Except those times he disappears but I leave those alone. I know he will not tell me. He seems almost jubilant when I pretend to have forgotten them.
But I'm his mother and I worry. After all that is what mothers do, they worry about their children. However me showing worry seems to make him worry all the more. So I forget about the wounds and worried thoughts and I welcome my Shuichi home.
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