Okay guys, I know this story stinks but that was because it was my very first! I am going to gradually rewrite it to make it better. I might not update it a lot seeing as I am writing a story called "Forever" and that is my main focus. But I do want to make this story better! I will be adding things to it, and maybe taking things out! I will be redoing New Life too sometime! Be patient though, I will update this when I can.
Bella's POV
I was driving up to Port Angeles to go to the bookstore that was up there, the Cullen's were out on one of their hunting trips. Edward had promised me last week that he would take me up in a couple days, but if they were going to be doing a lot of hunting trips then I would need something to do other then watch TV. My poor truck broke down last week so Jacob did everything he could but couldn't fix it, I loved that truck bu now I was driving a blue convertible. Edward insisted on getting it for me, and after a couple months of refusing to I finally gave in. I drove down the street with my hood down and the stereo blasting, I was singing along to The Way I Loved You by Taylor Swift. I turned on the street that had the bookstore on it, I had to go around the block like three times to find a parking space. I somehow managed to get one close by.
I pushed the button to put the hood down, turned off the stereo and shut off the car. I ran across the road, surprising myself that I didn't trip I made it across the road alive. I opened the door to the door to the store and there was a little metal bell that rang when I stepped in. I smiled at the worker as I walked over and started to search the shelves.
"Can I help you look for something?" The girl asked after almost a half an hour of searching.
"Um maybe, do you have any good love novels?" I asked.
"Okay, lets see..." She said searching the shelves. "Oh! I really enjoyed this book, have you read the play Romeo and Juliet?"
"Yeah, its one of my favorite plays." I told her, I basically lived the whole forbidden love thing.
"Then I am sure you'll like this book. It's similar but with twists." She told me.
"Sounds good." I said as I followed her to the register.
She scanned my book and smiled at me, I happened to glance over at this guy. He was sitting at a table, he was reading a book with a solid black cover, I caught him staring at me but thought nothing of it. The worker handed me back my credit card and told me that if I would like to read a little bit that would be fine. I took the offer and walked to go sit at a table, the only one that was left was the one with the strange guy. I let out a deep breath and sat down slowly, I glanced at him before opening my book. I could feel his eyes on my, have you ever walked in a room with a bunch of people in it and they all turned to look at you when you entered? Yeah it was like that only worse.
I tried my best to focus on the book, from what I was able to read it was interesting. I looked around pretending to search for something but I was really watching the guy out of the corner of my eye, he was wearing a black hoodie and dark blue jeans. He had blond hair that covered his eyes and what I could tell his eyes were blue.
"I'm sorry but its ten and we're closing the store now." The worker said looking at us.
I looked around the room wondering why she looked only at us, Oh, that's why, I thought. We were the only ones left, I put the book back in the bag and stood up. I ended up tripping over the walkway when I walked out, I shook my head to myself thankful that Emmett wasn't here to laugh at me. I fumbled around in my purse trying to find my car keys. Out of no where I was grabbed by someone, I dropped my purse and bag with the book in it. I screamed as the person dragged me down the alley, he clapped his hand over my mouth.
"Don't make me gag you!" He spat.
I kicked him in the knees and the legs but it didn't even effect him, I was about to aim for where I knew would effect him but he just threw me to the ground. The wind was knocked right out of me from the sudden blow, I gasped and tried to make a run for it. It didn't work to well, he slammed his foot into my lower back. I yelped in pain as I fell to the ground, the tears that threatened to come spilled out of my eyes and down my cheeks. He flipped me over so that he could see my face.
"Aw why are you crying baby? This won't be so bad." He said.
"Please! Don't do this! I'll... I'll give you money!" I pleaded.
"If I wanted your money I would have just yanked your purse!" He snapped at me.
"Why do you want me?" I asked.
"You looked so cute in the book store that I just had to try you out." He said smiling.
Then it hit me, it was the guy from the book store! The one that was staring at me the whole time I was in there. His hands found his belt, I cried harder as I begged him not to do this. He just laughed and knelt on the ground, he bent over and kissed my neck fiercely. In the process of doing that he managed to kick his pants off. He was now working on pulling my shirt off, I pushed and fought against him. He growled and held my wrists above my head, instead of trying to get it over my head he just ripped it off. I couldn't help blushing when he saw my chest, I was in a matching black lace bra and underwear set that Alice insisted on buying me. He finally finished examining my upper part of my body with a smile.
"Now comes the fun part!" He said as he tried to take off my pants.
"No! No!" I screamed as I kicked and screamed.
"Remember I can gag you!" He spat after he slapped me in the face.
I touched my cheek, there would definitely be a mark there. The only thing on my mind was getting out of this mess, I didn't want my first time to be with this creep. I wanted it to be with Edward, on our wedding night, well if he ever asks me that is. I snapped back into reality before I let my mind wonder to far, I focused on trying to get this guy off me. He managed to get my pants off, Crap! That's what I get for getting lost in thoughts about Edward! I cursed myself.
"Help! Someone help me!" I yelled, but it was no use the streets were abandoned and the girl already locked up the store and left a while ago.
"That's it!" He yelled, he tore some of my shirt off and used it to gag me.
I screamed through the gag, he took my head and bashed it hard enough into the ground that I blacked out. So much for fighting him off.
A Couple Hours Later
I groaned as I came around, I opened my eyes slowly wondering where I was. It didn't take long for everything to come back to me, I was raped. I was raped by some guy I didn't know, and I lost my virginity to someone other then Edward. Edward. I looked around for my purse, where was it? I saw a pile of stuff close by a dumpster, I started to drag myself over to it crying in pain. Turns out he put my purse with my ripped up clothes, he had taken my money out of my wallet but left everything else. I dug my phone out of my purse tears streaming down my face, I flipped open my phone to see a million texts from the family and a million voice mails from Edward. I quickly but slowly dialed his number, I put the phone to my ear as my hands shook.
"Bella? Bella! Where are you?" Edward answered.
"Edward?" I asked my voice all raspy and shaky.
"What's wrong? Bella are you okay?" He asked.
"Edward..." I whispered.
"I'm here Bella, tell me what is going on!" He begged.
"Edward... I... I was raped." I said feeling my eyes close.
"WHAT? Bella! Where are you?" He asked.
"Book...store... Port... Angeles..." I whispered.
"Bella don't worry! I am on my way! I love you Bella!"
My arm slowly fell to the ground as I lost consciousness for the second time.
"Bella? Bella!" Edward screamed through the phone in my hand.
Edward's POV
I raced out of the house not bothering to tell anyone what had happened or where I was going, I didn't even leave a note. I should have called Carlisle and let him know, but my main focus was Bella. I growled as I threw the door to the Volvo open, I wanted to run, it was more faster to run. I knew I couldn't though, even if it was night time there were still people out, and our secret couldn't be spilled. I slammed my foot down on the gas making my tires squeal, I saw Alice and Emmett run out of the house through my mirror but kept going.
The gas petal was pretty much on the ground now as I sped up, I whipped around a corner as I passed many cars ignoring the honks I was getting. I squinted as the rain started, I knew there was suppose to be a rain storm, but that was normal for Forks, it rained all the time. I put my wipers on as I accelerated more, Bella was probably soaked by now, and who knows how bad she was. I got to the main street where the library was at, few cars were still parked on the sides of the road, one being Bella's. I parked behind her car and got out of mine, I ran, human speed of course, to the library. She said she was here, but where? I looked up and down the street panicking.
It was then I saw the alley way, I hurried over to it looking down. I didn't need to squint to see like I was going to, I could smell her blood, I could smell things that came out of who ever did this to my angel. I growled to myself as I ran down the alley, I was appalled at what I saw. Bella lay unconscious sprawled out, she was covered in bruises, there were bruises everywhere, and she was naked. I stood there shocked for a few minutes before I decided that I should call the cops, luckily I got a hold of Charlie. I told him what happened, about the phone call and how I found her, I just hoped he believed that I didn't do this.
Charlie never liked me much, he saw me as a threat to his little girl. Little did he know that he was about to see his "little girl" in a way he never wanted too. I fell to my knees next to her head, I grabbed the phone out of her hand and threw it into her purse. I stroked her hair which was all wet and mixed in with blood.
…
I rushed into the hospital behind the paramedics that were rolling Bella in, I sensed Carlisle by the front desk but kept my eyes on Bella.
"Edward?" Carlisle asked.
He rushed over to me before looking at who was on the gurney.
"Son?" He asked.
It all hit me then, I fell to my knees feeling like my world was going to end. Carlisle grabbed my shoulders as he went down with me.
"Edward! Tell me what happened!" He ordered.
"I... She called... She called and she told me that she was... She was raped! I got to her as soon as I could Carlisle! We should have never went hunting! We... We should have stayed home!" I cried.
"Edward! None of us could have seen this coming!" He told me.
"Alice?" I snapped.
"Yes, of course Alice, but wouldn't she have said something like she always does?" He asked.
"I don't know dad! Does it matter right now? I'll kill Alice later but right now Bella is hurt! She is hurt and I could have stopped it!" I screamed not caring who heard me.
"Edward lower your voice!" Carlisle ordered.
"I'm going to Bella dad, I hope you will help her and not try to calm me down. I don't want to be calm, I'm pissed and hurt, and I'm going to kill who ever did this to her!" I said as I got up off the floor.
I walked over to the room that they brought Bella, I didn't waste time by going inside. I knew that they would just bring me back out here again or tell me that I would have to go in the waiting room. I knew the rules around here, I knew the people, who to stay away from, and who to go to for anything. All because Carlisle worked here, I stuffed my hands in my pockets as I watched.
…
I took a walk. I was sick of watching, watching as they hooked my Bella up to machines and wires. I was running out of places to walk though, another bad part of knowing this hospital, you could walk anywhere faster then anyone else, not to mention being a vampire also. I took a deep breath as I headed to the front desk, I saw Claire typing something up on a computer.
"Hi Edward." She greeted with a smile.
"Hey." I said less cheery about it.
"Bad day?" She asked.
"You could say that..." I said.
"Oh, I'm sorry." She said.
"It's not your fault." I told her.
"Anything I can do to help?" She asked.
I shook my head, "I don't think so..."
"Well I'm here if you need me." She said smiling as she sat down to begin her day.
"Thanks." I said before turning to leave.
"Edward!" Esme yelled.
I turned around, "Mom."
She hugged me, "Oh Edward!"
I gave her a little fake smile.
"How is she doing?" She asked me.
"I don't know, I gave up watching it was driving me crazy." I told her.
"Careful walking around here Edward, I know you must have smelt Bella's blood. No attacking any patients." She whispered so low that a human couldn't hear.
"I'm fine." I said.
"You better be." She said before walking over to the deck.
"Wait! Does the family know?" I asked.
"No," She said turning around, "Just you, me, and your father."
"Let's keep it that way, please?" I asked.
"That's fine." She said before turning back towards the desk.
I nodded before making my way to the waiting area, this was my fault...
Bella's POV
I gasped as my eyes shot open, where was I? I held up my right hand to see an IV attached to it. Ugh. The hospital I thought. It all came to me again, I cried out as I pulled myself into a ball. I felt so violated, I wouldn't be surprised if Edward never wanted to see me again. The door to the room opened and Carlisle walked in, he smiled gently down at me.
"How are you feeling?" He asked.
"Violated." I whispered.
"Other then that. Are you in pain?" He asked.
"Yeah." I said looking at the floor.
"I'll give you something for it." He said walking over to a tray.
He came back with a syringe and put it in the IV pushing the medication from the syringe. I closed my eyes and began to cry, how could he look at me? How could he want to be around me?
"It's okay Bella." Carlisle said putting a hand on my shoulder.
I cried out cringing away, he took his hand away quickly, I cried harder into my pillow.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. Do you want me to get Edward?" He asked.
"He... He's here?" I sobbed.
"Of course he's here. He is worried to death about you." He told me.
"He... He is?" I cried.
"He is." He said.
"Okay..." I whispered.
"I'll go get him." He said.
I saw him reach for my shoulder again, but he stopped himself before turning to leave.
"Carlisle?" I asked.
"Yes honey?" He asked.
"This may sound weird, and maybe it is weird to say, but I love you." I whispered.
"I love you too Bella." He said smiling.
He left to go find Edward, I wiped the tears from my eyes as I squeezed them shut. I heard the door open and swing shut, I knew he was here, I knew he was standing right by my bed. He was looking at me, a mixture of pain, hurt, and confusion on his face. I knew all this without opening my eyes, without looking at him.
"Bella." He said quietly.
Tears fell from my eyes as I shook my head.
"Bella. Open your eyes." He said as he knelt down on his knees by my head.
"No." I cried shaking my head more.
"Love, please. Open your eyes. I want to see your brown eyes Bella. Please." He begged.
I took s deep breath before I opened my eyes, I gasped when I saw his gold ones looking straight at me. He brought his hand to my cheek slowly. I gasped and held my breath, he gently placed his hand on my cheek.
"I wont hurt you." He whispered.
"I... I know you wont..." I said.
"Oh Bella, I am so sorry." He said.
I burst into more tears, "I was raped Edward... I was raped."
"I know." He said before climbing into bed.
He gently took me into his arms and held me as I cried into his chest.
…
"No one knows, it's up to you when you want to tell them." Edward said as we walked into the house.
"Do we have to tell them?" I asked hugging myself tighter.
"I think you should." He told me helping me sit on the couch.
"Where are they now?" I asked hugging my knees.
"Carlisle and Esme took them away for a while to give you some time." He said.
I nodded looking at the floor, I didn't feel the same, it was like I was a different person. I looked around the room, the house that felt so safe, so familiar, didn't anymore. I felt that he could get me at any moment.
"You are safe here Bella, no one can hurt you." Edward said making me jump.
I nodded again not sure what to say, how could he be sure I wouldn't be hurt anymore? There was a bang in the kitchen and I screamed jumping off the couch in fear. Edward looked at me shocked before going to see what it was, he returned a minute later holding a metal bowl.
"It was just a bowl falling." He said setting it down.
I covered my face with my hands and cried, I couldn't take this, I just got home from the hospital and I was already afraid. Edward came over to me and put his arms around me rubbing my back, he kissed my forehead and told me that it would be okay.
"What am I suppose to tell the family? When they come home! I mean they'll realize that I'm acting weird I mean I jumped and screamed at a bowl falling!" I said pulling myself away from Edward.
"We'll say you aren't feeling well." He suggested.
"Yeah, but how long can we use that excuse?" I asked.
"Long enough for you to find a way to tell them what happened." He said.
"I think I'm going to puke!" I gasped.
I ran to the bathroom and slammed the door shut before I threw up in the toilet. I gasped for air before throwing up more clutching my stomach, I reached for the handle before flushing it and standing up. I walked over to the sink looking at myself in the mirror.
"She's throwing up! Is this normal?" I heard Edward say.
I reached for my tooth brush and my tooth paste before turning the water on, I squirted some paste on to my tooth brush before looking up at the mirror. I let a bloody murder scream when I saw someone behind me.
"Edward!" I snapped, "You cant do that to me!"
"Sorry, I didn't mean to freak you out." He said.
I shook my head before brushing my teeth quickly.
"What did Carlisle say?" I asked before spitting.
"He said it was most likely shock." He said.
I nodded before rinsing my mouth out and spitting again, I turned the water off before turning around. I moved around Edward and walked into the living room to find the family walking it, I froze. I wasn't ready, I wasn't ready to face them.
"Bella!" Emmett yelled.
He came at me, and I freaked. He came to fast and reminded me too much of that guy, I gasped tripping over my own feet and falling down. I saw him walk closer, I panicked and crawled backward until I hit the wall. He kept coming closer, I whimpered.
"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!" I screamed holding my hands in front of me.
"Bella?" He asked confused.
"Emmett! Step away from her." Edward said.
"What's wrong with her?" Emmett asked.
I shook as I squeezed my eyes shut, I felt a hand on me and screamed.
"Bella! It's me Carlisle." Carlisle said.
I slowly opened my eyes.
"I'm going to take you upstairs now." He told me.
I nodded, he picked me up bridal style before climbing the stairs. I began to feel like I was over reacting somehow, but how was I suppose to act? I was raped and I am terrified of everything because of that guy. Carlisle brought me into Edward's room, I gasped when I saw a bed in the place of his shelves.
"He bought a bed for me?" I asked.
"Well, Esme and I did, but it was his idea." He told me.
"You didn't have too..." I said as he set me down in the middle of the bed.
"I know, we wanted too." He said.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"For what?" He asked.
"I don't know exactly..." I whispered.
"Well, what ever it is... It's no problem." He said before leaving.
It took me twenty minutes to go into a full blown panic attack, I was alone, with windows with no curtains, and I wasn't sure if they locked. I slowly scooted to the edge of the bed before stepping on the ground and walking over to the window. I looked out of the window before reaching for the lock, I locked the window before going to lock all of the windows. After that was all taken care of I wrote 'Curtains' on a pad of paper and set it on the side table. I climbed into the bed pulling the blankets over me, I closed my eyes as I felt the coldness of the sheets. I smiled to myself a little thinking of Edward, for a split second I worried about where he would sleep, but then I remembered he was a vampire, and vampires don't sleep.
Edward's POV
"What's going on with Bella Edward?" Emmett asked me.
"Nothing, she doesn't feel good and I told you that." I told him.
"You don't act like that because you don't "Feel good," there's something else going on!" He said following me to the living room.
"Look Emmett, all I am going to say to you to anyone, is that she is not feeling well." I told him.
Emmett looked at me before shaking his head, "Whatever."
I rolled my eyes before sitting on the couch, he came and sat next to me handing me a controller. He picked out a game and put it in, just as we were about to play I heard Bella scream and a crash. I threw the controller to the floor before flying up the stairs Emmett following. I threw open the door to my bedroom to find her thrashing around in bed screaming. I ran to the bed and put my hand on her shoulder, she actually kicked me in the stomach.
"Bella! BELLA!" I called.
She screamed and sat up gasping for air, she looked at me for a second before hugging me.
"It's okay, I got you. No ones going to hurt you, your safe." I whispered to her.
"Don't let me go, just hold me okay?" She said.
"I will, for as long as you need." I said.
I looked at Emmett who stood there shocked, I gave him a look. He nodded and left the room shutting the door behind him. I climbed on to the bed next to Bella and held her in my arms, I kissed the top of her head closing my eyes.
"It was him." She said out of no where.
"Who?" I asked.
"The guy, who... Who raped me. He was chasing me, and I called for you but you just walked away from me. The guy raped me again, and he beat me too. Then you woke me up so I don't know what happened..." She whispered.
"Oh Bella, I would never walk away from you when you are in trouble. I love you." I told her.
I went to go kiss her on the lips, she pulled away and crawled out of my arms, I looked at her.
"Please. I'm not ready yet." She said hugging her knees.
"Okay, it's fine, I'm sorry." I said.
"I love you." She said quietly.
"What?" I asked.
"You said you loved me, I love you too." She said.
I smiled, "I love you."
There it is! Better? Worse? Let me know! Review!
