Okay, so this is my first fanfic, and its future is in you all's hands. So please read and review. Tell me what you think. What I can do better and what not. I do have more ideas for this one, so it is not going to end here. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

-Ju


It had been eight months since she had said yes to Ray's proposal. Which also meant that it had been eight months since she told Tony that she had accepted Ray's proposal. Since then he has hardly looked or talked to her. Gibbs has noticed the change in their relationship, but doesn't say anything. So has McGee, he has asked but no one has answered. Maybe if she corners him into the men's restroom, he'll talk to her. But if she does that she might only push him further away.

She look across the bullpen at her partner, he looks so sad. She usually knew how to help him by just talking to him, but he didn't want to talk to her. She gets pulled from her thoughts by Gibbs telling them that they were good to go home. So she packs up her stuff and heads for the elevator.


She sits on the couch sipping her tea, thinking….of Tony. What is going on with him? And why will he not talk to me about it? Hmm, maybe she should go call him. Just as she was going to call, her phone started to ring.

"David."

"Good evening, beautiful," Ray voice filled her ear. To her surprise that was the last person she wanted to talk to right now.

"Ray?" She said surprised. She was hoping that it would be Tony calling. But he hasn't called her just to talk in almost nine months now. Just to be able to talk to him like she use to would be good.

"Yes, Ray, were you expecting someone else sweetheart?" he asked.

"No, I just am tired and did not look at my phone before I answered it that is all," she replied.

"So how is my beautiful bride to be?" he sung through the phone.

"I am fine, just waiting for you to come home," Ziva replied as soft as she could. In all honesty she didn't care when he came home, because she was more worried about Tony and why he would not talk or look at her.

"I'll be home before Saturday, I promise," Ray said with a smile on his face.

"I would sure hope so since we are getting married Saturday," rolling her eyes at his way of comfort, or whatever he was trying to do.

"Well I will let you go to sleep, goodnight, I love you," he said.

"I…." she paused. "I love you too, Ray," she murmured. And then hung up.

As she sat on the couch, she thought about the upcoming weekend. I am really ready to get married? Is Ray the man I want to marry? Sitting there thinking of everything, her mind drifted back to Tony. She wondered what he was doing. Was her sitting at home on his couching watching James Bond, drinking a beer? Goodness, she really needed to stop thinking about Tony when she was thinking about her wedding, or in general, she needed to stop thinking about him.

That's when she realized that all the times she was thinking about her wedding she would think about Tony, and if he would like the colors she picked, or if he would like the cake she choose, that maybe it should be Tony standing at the end of the isle, Saturday not Ray. So she got up from the couch, got her keys and headed to talk to a silver-headed man that was like a father to her.


Ziva hesitates at the first stair to the basement, when she is startled by Gibbs' voice.

"Dinozzo, I told you not to come back till you told her how you felt," expressing with looking up.

"Hello Gibbs," Ziva replied. Still shocked by what she just heard. Why would Tony be here? Who is this her that he needed to tell how he felt too? She only wished that it was her.

"Ziver, what can I do for you?"

"Well, as you know my wedding is Saturday and I just...well I do not know if I am making the right decision," she paused hoping he would say something, but when he didn't she continued. "You see Ray has been away a lot on business the last month and it has me thinking is; this something that I want to spend the rest of my life with? A man that keeps secrets from me, who is gone for weeks at a time? Yeah maybe I should have thought about this eight months ago, but I guess…" she trailed off.

"Ziver, have you talked to Tony?"

"No, he has not talked to me since I told him that I was going to marry Ray, I been thinking about him a lot. I do not why he will not talk to me, Gibbs," she confessed sadly.

"Maybe you should talk to him, you may figure this out." She thought to herself, how would talking to Tony help me with all of this?

"Can I ask you a question?"

"Of course."

"Do you think it is possible to love two people?"

Looking up from his work for the first time since she had walk into the basement, he looked at her with the sincerest eyes. "Ziver, I think that it is possible for you to love two people yes, but I don't think it is possible for you to be in love with two people, if that is what you're asking."

With that answer she realized that he was right, she couldn't be in love with Ray and Tony. She was constantly thinking about Tony, and she knew she had feelings for him before Ray but never acted on them because of Rule 12. She knew which one she was in love with was. But how to tell him was the problem, what if he did not feel the same, it could ruin everything.

With a kiss on the cheek she thanked Gibbs and left. She need to go talk to Tony, maybe she could get to the bottom of him avoiding her.