This is From Kathy's Point of view
When Did You Stop Loving Me
"Elliot we need to talk." There I said them the three most dreaded words to anyone in a relationship. I've been waiting for those words for the last 7 years. I knew he didn't love me anymore; he was just going through the motions so to speak. "Ok Kathy but can this wait we just got a new case and Cragen is going to have my ass if I don't get down there." I don't think the reality of the words hit him yet. Let's try this again. "No Elliot this can't wait we need to talk now." I think I broke through to him because now he seems a little nervous, I've always said "ok we can talk later I guess it isn't all that important" and gave him a kiss and figured whatever it was out on my own. But this time I can't do it on my own. It takes two people to get married and another two to get divorced. "What do you want to talk about Kath?" I motion for him to sit down as I know this is going to take awhile "Well for starters I need to know when you stopped loving me..."
When
did you stop loving me
How
long have I been a memory
I've
got to know for my own sanity
Tell
me when did you stop loving me
After I got it all out he just sat there dumbfounded for a minute before finally speaking "Kathy what are you talking about, I never stopped loving you..." "Elliot stop" I interrupted him," I think we both know that we haven't been 'In Love' so to speak for quite sometime, I know you still care about me as I care about you but we aren't in love. But you are in love with someone, just not me." I can still remember when I first met Olivia Benson. At first I was jealous and hated her, but her personality just isn't of one you can hate, she's caring and compassionate. I can see how Elliot fell in love with her. Of course he didn't act on it, he was a devoted Catholic and he would never cheat on me. But he spent more time with her, more hours, and more cases, more times spent as a squad. Everyone loved her, they were drawn to her.
Was
it that night that you stayed out until dawn
You
know that night has haunted me for so long
Or
was your love already cold
Tell
me please I've got to know
Darling,
when did you stop loving me
"Are you talking about Liv? Is that what this is? Kath she's my partner nothing more!"
Oh. My. God. He doesn't realize it yet. I bet Olivia doesn't either. How is it that everyone around them can see it but they can't? "Elliot, the chemistry you guys have, the way you can read each other ,how you know what the other is thinking, you guys have a connection and don't tell me that it's because you have been partners for so long because that is bull and you know it. We have been married twenty years and we still don't have that connection. You love her Elliot and she loves you. If you two can't see it you're both blind." There was a silence of realization from him. Just then his phone rang. "Stabler"..."Yeah I got a little held up but I'll be right there" He shut his phone and turned to me "Kathy I'm really sorry but..." I nodded "you have to go, its ok Elliot I'm not mad anymore, not anymore." He nodded at me and walked out the door from his soon to be ex-wife to the woman he loves. And you know what? It's true what I said, I'm not mad at all. In fact, I'm relieved that we don't have to play a charade anymore.
There
was a time when you worshiped where I stood
Heaven
knows Id bring it back if I could
I
can tell when we make love
It
ain't me you're thinking of
Tell
me when did you stop loving me
Darling,
when did you stop loving me.
