Just had some writers block on Of Blonds and Spray Paint and this story has been on the back of my mind. I'll try my best to work on both stories =)
And on a side note: I'm not 100% happy with how this chapter turned out so I might rewrite it eventually.
What if you did something differently? How much of your life would be different? Would you still have the same friends? Would you still have a descent relationship with your family? Would you still be married to a woman you knew you didn't love?
My name is Roxas Lemony. I'm 26 years old. I live in Hollow Bastion with my high school sweetheart/wife, Xion, and these thoughts keep me up all night every night.
What is it that keeps me up? I have no idea. But I know there's something or someone in my life that's missing and I know what I'm missing is somewhere in my past. I know it sounds stupid but every night I wish on the first star that appears in the night sky. I would wish for a chance to go back to the time when I messed up.
I knew it was a wast of time and that wishing on stars was something only children do but I just had to do it. So tonight as I sat on the balcony outside of mine and Xion's room staring up at the summer sky I expected the what always happens to happen, nothing. But as I wished on the first star that appeared in the sky the temperature suddenly dropped so low that I could see my breath and the star seemed to move. It didn't look like the typical falling star that goes across the sky, it looked more like it was coming at me like an meteor. I tried to run back in the house but me feet were frozen in place.
Before the impact tho the world seemed to stop and a calming female voice spoke, "I have watched you come out here every night and pray to me. I shall help you with your desire and send you back to the past and allow you to go back 5 times more times. When you are ready to come back you have to kill yourself and you will wake up back here. But be warned, what you change in your past will effect your future. I take pity on you young man so I shall give you a freebee and I shall send you back to the day when you messed up your life.
I couldn't move. I could barely think what with a flying mass of rock hovering in front of me. But before I could register what was happening the meteor that was paused in midair came crashing down on me.
~x~X~x~X~
I shot up in my bed. What the hell just happened? I felt movement beside me. Great Xion woke up now I'm going to have to deal with her whining about me disturbing her beauty sleep. I fully woke up when I felt a long wet tongue slide across my cheek. That wasn't Xion. I looked to my left and saw my old dog Pluto. Wait, Pluto died a few years ago...
What the fuck is going on? I looked around and noticed the room. The sun was up so it was easy to see I was in my old room at my father's house. I haven't been here since I was 10. I jumped out of the bed, ran out of my room and down the hall into the bathroom. Looking in the mirror I noticed my reflection looked younger. 16 years younger to be exact. What the hell! Then I saw something on my neck. It was a blue tattoo that was in the shape of a 5.
I shall send you back to the day when you messed up your life.
That's right, I almost forgot about last night. So what happened today that messed me up? I was about to walk back to my room when I heard a loud bang from downstairs. Not thinking I ran down to the noise and ran to the livingr oom just in time to see my father hit my mother and send her flying across the room. I couldn't move. That man scared me to much to just go running towards him even if it was to defend my mother.
My mother got up off the floor looked over in my direction and yelled, "Roxas hurry up and run over to Axel's. NOW!"
As soon she said that I turned towards the door and sprinted outside not caring that I was still in my PJ's. Once I was out of there I realized what today was. Today was the day my mother got tired of my father's abuse and bull shit packed up and left Radiant Gardens with me. Was leaving with her what fuck up my life? Wasn't leaving with her supposed to help my life? Before I could think about it anymore I was across the street at Axel's house.
Axel Marietti was my best friend. We were next door neighbors and have known each other since we were in diapers. He was a year older then me and bossed me around because of it. He had bright red hair and green eyes.
I went inside the house knowing it wasn't locked and I wouldn't get in trouble for going inside, it's not like I haven't don it before or Axel's done it at my house. My feet took me into the kitchen where it looked like Axel and his family were about to start eating breakfast. Axel's mom asked me if I was alright but I just stared at the floor and tried to remember what happens next.
Let's see..16 years ago I woke up to my parents fighting (again) and then my mother came in my room and told me to wait at Axel's house for her. I ran up to Axel's room while him and his family were oblivious to me being there. They found me curled up under the bed after my mother came to find me and tell me we were leaving and never coming back.
Now things were different. They knew I was here and I knew what would happen in about an hour. I heard Mrs. Marietti ask me if I was okay again but I still didn't answer or look up. There was a faint squeak of a chair moving and I felt a warm hand on my chin and force my eyes up off the floor and up to green eyes.
My heart dropped into my stomach and I clung to him. How long has it been since I last thought of him? I remember when I first moved for the first few days I would cry at night about missing everything that was left behind and on the first day of school I cried because Axel wasn't there for me to sit with him during lunch or tease me whenever I did something embarrassing. But as the years wore on I started thinking about him less and less until I started thinking about him all together.
I started to cry. I was such a horrible friend! Now I know what I was missing my best friend. I needed him to help me throughout my life. I needed him to act stupid with, someone to experience my first love with, someone to vent to when my problems got to much to handle by myself.
But what if I wasn't someone Axel needed in his life? What if he was happy with the life he had and here I was ruining it for him. What if I just made his life hell for him if I stay.
"Axel and Roxas sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" Sang Axel's older brother Reno from his seat at the table.
"Shut up Reno!" Axel shouted at his brother and pulled my closer to him when I tried to get out of our hug.
"Ha! Look he's crying! Did I hurt poor Roxy's feelings?" Reno mocked me. Like he had any idea way I was crying. I faced Reno and was about to say things no 10 year old should ever say but before any words were out of my mouth Axel stepped out of our hug, grabbed my wrist and dragged me up to his room.
"Kay we're alone. Now spill what's wrong with you?" He sat on the bed and looked at me as I paced the room. How was I going to tell him that I was from the future and was back so I wouldn't lose him but was going to be forced to leave forever soon? Well I guess I could tell him like that but he would probably think I was joking with him and laugh it off or he would think I went insane and wouldn't talk to me anymore.
After a few more minutes of pacing I discided to tell him the semi-truth, "Mom and dad are fighting again."
Axel knew how much of a ass my dad could be and knew how he got when he was mad, "Don't worry Roxy, I'll keep you safe." He grabbed me and pulled me onto his lap. Was he always this clingy?
There was a sudden knock at the door, "Roxas it's your mother. Can you please open the door so I can talk to you?"
Nononononononono I knew what she wanted to talk about. I don't want to leave. I finally got my best friend back.
