Hello dears!

Welcome to this Character Study on Yuuri, Wolfram; and the possible developments if they broke off their engagement. This works as a... counterpart of sort to What do I think of us? as Yuuri does have a similar start on his views, but unlike What do I think of us? he ends up deciding on the dissolution. Two parts will follow, please make sure to read the notes at the start as it explains all!


The Road to Changes.

Part 1: Engagement Dissolution.

His engagement to Wolfram had always been something Yuuri had not delved on too much. While at first it was mostly because he had trouble with the simple acceptance of Shin Makoku on same sex couples, soon it was just because too much was going on for him.

Yuuri had never been one of those hateful people that could be harsh in their views. He just never thought he would be one to be with another male. So to be suddenly engaged to a boy, the same day he had been announced he would be the Maoh?

It had been too much, and before he could even try to explain that he had not meant the slap as a proposal, he found himself in a duel. His mind had been preoccupied then with staying in one piece. And by the time he finished winner and fainted for three days, Wolfram had accepted their engagement.

Yuuri had been too weary to protest, and let the matter drop. He just wanted to get used to the new strangeness of his life, and he naively thought the matter could solve itself. He had not expected Wolfram to pursue him as he had done; quite the over-jealous Fiancé and only succeeding in making Yuuri even less willing to muse in seriousness on their engagement.

It went like this for a long while, even if Wolfram ended up a really good friend. In a sense, because they grew as friends, he felt wary on possibly shaking their relationship. And so, Yuuri would not think much of their engagement unless reminded-often by Wolfram-and his mind rejected the notion of being engaged.

It was not until peace settled that the teen could truly stop and ponder on the fact he had a-male-Fiancé; and with a maturity that had been slow in its acquisition, he realized why he had troubles.

Yuuri had never been given the occasion to get used to the idea of dating a man, to spend time to get to know Wolfram as a boyfriend. All because they had the title of Fiancé.

Yes, he found Wolfram pretty. But enjoying the physical appearance did not mean he was attracted in the ways Wolfram hoped. Yes, he might fall for the blond with time.

But it was the might that made Yuuri uneasy. How long would this engagement drag as Yuuri tried to gather his feelings? And what if he never returned anything else than deep friendship?

No matter how he looked at it, Yuuri knew. If he and Wolfram ever wanted to really put down the foundation of a solid relation-be it romantic or amicable-they had to let go of the title that ended up trapping them.

How could they evolve as anything if they stayed closed in the expectation of living up to their engagement?

Now that his realization of what he needed to do came, the hardest part needed to follow. He had grown to understand Wolfram really loved him, and that was the reason he feared the conversation they would soon have. He cared for Wolfram, even if nothing could be said on the exact way, and he had no wish to hurt him. Yet, in a sense this was what he had done by having closed his eyes for so long. And so, with resolve to try to right the situation, he settled for having this much needed discussion when the two of them were alone: just before bed.


Wolfram noticed right away Yuuri acted differently tonight, and it made him nervous. He caught once a rapid worried and guilty look, which made him wary in turn. So when Yuuri called out his name in a tentative way, he breathed in and went to sit beside Yuuri on the bed without words. His emerald eyes bore into Yuuri's hesitant but determined black eyes, noticing the nervous swallow before sadness erupted. The blond already knew what was to come, yet Yuuri would surprise him anyway.

"Wolfram... I know I should have taken our engagement seriously way sooner. I've always said it wasn't widely accepted on Earth and that I liked girls, but it never was excuses to drag it around... And you. I... It might be hard to explain but... I don't think I can still say for certain I wouldn't grow to l-love another male. I can't tell you that I'll never love you, but in the same way I can't affirm I will. I want... Yeah, I just want us to be able to spend time together without expectations. Otherwise I feel like we will never be able to truly form anything. We are close already, and I know I care for you, but..."

"You feel like we will stay this way if nothing changes?"

Wolfram had thought this would hurt, yet soon after Yuuri started the blond had followed his thoughts. He was not saying he couldn't love him; hell his king was trying to express his wish to deepen their bond. Wolfram was aware there was a possibility Yuuri never returned romantic feelings; yet his heart suddenly yearned for the likeness of creating an even stronger bond that the current one.

"Exactly. If we stay Fiancé... It's almost like we are not able to act as anything else. It's such a great thing that we did become friends through this sudden engagement, but you know... Isn't it time we try to do this right?"

Wolfram gave a small smile. "I think... that's all I ever really wanted. I understand... you want to break off the engagement, and that... You might never feel the same. But if you try... I can be happy anyway."

Yuuri could not help it, he brought Wolfram into his arms for a hug. The blond stiffened, then relaxed. That was not helping Wolfram when it came to his love for Yuuri, but well-he felt happy. He craved Yuuri's attention, and he knew it would be hard especially if it turned out Yuuri had no feelings, but he felt it was all worth it.

Yuuri was worthy of any struggles, of the effort, of the freedom to chose. He was worthy of a love that meant to make sure Yuuri followed the path he chose.

That had been what he had learned through the weeks he grew to love Yuuri. His love should not bind Yuuri, he was worth fighting for but not if it meant going against Yuuri's happiness. Wolfram would be happy if Yuuri tried; knowing that if Yuuri did not return his feelings then at least they attempted to make it work.

More than ever he was conscious feelings could not be controlled, that Yuuri needed the right circumstances to know his own. And that, Wolfram would gladly give him.