I decided to try my hand at some poetry, and here it is.
Honestly,
I can think of a thousand reasons I hate you,
each one as painful as the burden you hide behind your mask.
You mock me,
you tease me,
you toy with my emotions and twist my feelings,
you create ridiculous ideas that infuriate me,
and with one slap across your face,
it reminds me that I'm still me,
and I don't have to fall for
your occasional moments,
when I can actually believe that
you truly care.
I know I haven't always been fair,
but it's the least you deserve,
for all the times
that you unintentionally hurt my feelings,
and made me feel worthless and confused.
And there's the times I feel guilty,
for ignoring you,
only because sometimes,
you make it seem like
your actually concerened about me,
and don't consider me as
another one of your fake "hunnies".
What bothers me the most though,
isn't your philandering habits,
your unessecary nicknames,
or even your wandering hands and eyes.
What I can't stand the most,
is that you almost always,
know the right thing to say,
especially when I'm feeling terrible.
You know exactly
how I'm feeling,
what I'm feeling,
even when I slap you or come close to breaking down.
I hate you so much it hurts,
and if that's truly what it is,
I don't understand why I keep coming back,
or even talking to you.
I wish I knew why somedays,
I enjoy listening to you talk,
why somedays,
your caring and sincere,
and I enjoy spending time with you.
You mean so much to me,
but I'm so confused.
Despite all the times we shared,
I'll still never understand
why you did this,
and I'll probably never find out,
if you actually had good intentions.
If you are as confused as I am,
I don't want to know,
because the one thing I hate,
above everything else...
...is a traitor.
So I'm really not qute sure what I think about it, it's definatly a bit angsty compared with the stuff I usually write. I know it's short, but I just wrote it as something to get me inspired to write some more Sheelos today.
Please review!
