They stood speechless in front of each other , his hands pressed firmly to her face as she caught her breath. He did not expect to find himself here again, not now , not after everything he had done to her . He had caused her so much pain over the past 2 years and he couldn't believe that fate had done this to him .

"No! Damon stop you don't get to kiss me and then not talk! You can't just make it all go away not again ... you can't do this to me again!" She said pushing him away her voice cracking.

"Elena... I am so sorry , i don't know what I was thinking ok?! Everything over the last year has made my head a mess , I can't eat , I can't sleep , I can't do anything without you ! " he said frustrated throwing his fist to the wall.

"God! Why did you let me leave ! If you hadn't let me leave we wouldn't be stood here now !" He said angrily.

"I was grieving Damon! Remember that ?! I lost our child ? Remember her , our baby girl ? Do you even think about us when you're out partying every night blaming me for everything we've gone through! " she screamed grabbing his arm.

"God! I don't blame you Elena! Don't you see that ! I blame myself !" He spat ripping his arm from her grip.

"Good! Because guess what Damon? you should ! You where the one that walked away , you left me all alone to deal with everything and you didn't look back once ... the only reason you're even back is because Stefan and Caroline had a baby !"She said angrily . Her hands were shaking with anger but even the anger wasn't enough to hide how she really felt as she finally let a sob escape her throat. She was devastated.

"Do you know what ? Just leave ! Leave and don't come back I hate you !"

In that moment his heart was broken.. everything he had feared for the past 2 years had been confirmed.. the love of his life hated him and there was nothing he could do to fix it ...

He had no idea how to even begin to explain his reasons for leaving her , for jetting off to London and never bothering to tell her . But what else could he do , he had to try .

A/N : Chapter One will be set back 4 years when Delena first got together and their journey through to this point will be explained ! Hope you enjoy I can't wait to start writing again :))