Mind Game

A/N: Since I just finished Ender's Shadow, I suppose this is my attempt at identifying the differences between Ender and Bean.

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Disclaimer: I don't own Ender's Game or Ender's Shadow. Both belong to Orson Scott Card.

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Isolate me.

Use me.

Analyze me.

I don't care any more.

You've thrown away the rules.

But that doesn't matter to you.

It doesn't matter to you if you break me –

Unless the war is lost first.

Well, I don't want to play.

I've had enough.

But of course, you don't care.

You're just going to keep pushing.

You've found the killer you want –

All you have to do now is shape me.

Keep me in the dark,

Where I have to face my fears.

The torture never lets up.

I'm afraid.

I don't want to be a killer.

But I don't have a choice –

It's me or humanity.

I don't want to play your stupid game.

I don't want to fight.

Let someone else kill.

Not me.

I don't want to hurt them.