First OUAT fic, I just hope I got the characters right!

Summary: Emma hears her sons cries and knows she cannot give the little boy, and decides to keep him. But she is still the saviour and she still needs to break the curse.

Pregnant... how can she be pregnant, she and Neil were always so careful – weren't they? Nevertheless there is a stick in her hand which reads a pink plus. She groans dropping the stick onto her lap leaning against the wall. She can't keep them, she doesn't know the first thing about being a parent – she didn't exactly have the best role models of parenting. She doesn't care, she just let the tears fall, for she knows there is a worse day coming. The day she needs to give them up, because she knows their best chance isn't with her.

It takes Emma a while to get used to a baby bump, at five months it isn't too big. And today is her meeting with Mr Gold as he is the person arranging the adoption. "Mr Gold?" She asks and he smiles.

"Hello dearie." He says. He was surprised to find he could leave the town freely, he thought the curse would stop him but here he is. "I heard you want to give him up?"

"Him? I don't know the sex..." Gold's eyes widen, he didn't know he could tell the future being out of the enchanted forest.

"Just a hunch." He says and she nods, lots of people have bets on the sex, at the moment girl is in the running. A smug grin touches her lips she knows it's a boy. She feels it. "So why do you want to give him away?"

"I can't give him his best chance." She says smiling as she says him. This is the first time she has given them a gender. She loves the feeling. She'll never call it them again.

"Ah I see, well I already have an amazing client set up. She will be an amazing mother." Emma smiles a little sadly. It's done.

Emma thought she would feel better knowing he has a family lined up but she can't help feeling a little bitter and saddened by it. She knew he is going to have a better live without her. She felt jealous someone else would be raising her baby. Sure she would be doing it alone if she were to raise him. Neil clearly wants nothing to do with her and her son(even though he knows nothing about him) why should he have the chance to after what he did. But all of this was fantasy she has already given up the right to him when she agreed to an adoption.

"So once he is born it will take three weeks for the papers to finalized where he will be put in a house – unless you would like to keep him for the three week period?" Emma wordlessly shakes her head and old sighs. He can see what this is doing to her, even though he is the Dark One he feels sorrow for the woman in front of him. "But of course you still have till he's born to change your mind."

Emma looks up, hope glittering in her eyes. And then Gold realises why he doesn't help people, he hates hope. Regina is going to kill me.

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Emma didn't realise giving birth would be so painful. She screams and just wants the kid out. She isn't comfortable already because she is handcuffed to the bed making sure she isn't going to run. "Like I'd run after this." She scoffs then screams as another contraction hits. "Okay, Emma here is the hard bit – your fully dilated you need to push." She freezes, once he's out she has to give him up... Has it come around already? She lets her head hit the bed. She can't do this. But she has to, her little boy is going to have an amazing mother. He'll have a good life. She remembers Gold's words. "Can I do this..?" She asks shakily.

"Yes, yes Emma you can do this." She thinks to her parents. If they were able to do this then throw her away to die, then she could do this to give her son a better life. An hour later she collapses on to the bed, "Emma would you like to hold him." She shakes her head.

"I can't be a mom." She whispers as she hears someone say to the Doctor she is giving him up for adoption. The Doctor nods.

"It's still your choice Emma." Then as if on cue the little boy cries. Emma looks up, holding out her arms for the little boy. The Doctor smiles putting the boy in her arms.

"Hello Baby," she says her eyes tearing up. She made this, she carried him for nine months. She can't give him, he's hers. "I want to keep him." The Doctor smiles.

A day later she is in the hospital room nursing her son. "Miss Swan, motherhood seems to fit you." Mr Gold says as he enters the room. She looks up smiling. She can't get over how little he is.

"Mr Gold." She says.

"I must admit the adoptee is every upset, but she understands that sometimes these things happen. She hopes he will be okay. "

"It's funny I cannot think of anything to call him. And I can't call him Kid, Kidlet, or Baby. So what was she going to talk him?" Gold actually doesn't know but he knows Regina rather well.

"She was going to call him Henry." A grin breaks out on her face, she brings out her piece of paper writing down the remaining information and folds it putting it in an envelope. "I know it supposed to be a closed adoption but what was her name?"

"Regina."

She writes the name on the envelope and hands it to him. "Give her this?" He looks out the door.

"She's here why don't you give it her yourself? She's only just found out." She looks to the brunette outside who looks devastated. She frowns looking sad. "No, just give it to her. I need to look after Henry."

Mr Gold takes the note. "Of course."

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Regina leans on the counter of her kitchen, she had gone to sign the papers to find out the mother as keeping the little boy which is completely understandable. She wouldn't be able to give up her child either. It still hurt though. The little boy was supposed to be her new start, her happy ending, her second chance but she supposes she won't get that within the curse ever. This is a sign that this was not supposed to be. She takes a deep breath collecting her thoughts. She then remembers the letter Gold had given her. "That imp." She breaks the seal to the envelope and reads it aloud.

"Dear... well I don't know your name but hopefully I'll find out. I never intended this to happen, I was never planning on holding my precious little boy. This was never the plan. And I never intended to hurt you. It was always my plan to give him up, you were always the intended mother. I never intended to love him so deeply like I have. But I heard him cry, and I knew I needed to see him... then I just couldn't bring myself to give him up. I feel this protective thing for him. He's mine, yaknow? I made him, I felt him kick when I needed reminding I wasn't alone anymore and it was the best feeling in the world, to know I wasn't alone anymore for the past 18 years I have, and now I have someone to look out for. I understand if you never read this far as I have screwed you over more than words can describe. So for that I apologise so much, but I don't think I realised how much I need him. I have this little boy to look after now. I will never forget you, I wish I knew your name – maybe I'll ask Mr Gold.

Just so you know I named him Henry for you. Henry Alan. I hope that makes you feel a little better.

Emma

She crossed out her last name, I can't really make it out..." Regina is actually brought to tears by this letter from Emma, she just hopes for Henry Emma made the right decision. She sees she did indeed find out her name knowing Gold had something to do with it. She couldn't help wondering what the little Imp was up to.

(Edited this chapter)Feedback is greatly appreciated!:)