p class="MsoNormal"You look at their reflection in the mirror, can feel their hot breath on the back of your neck, their hands barely touching you, barely grazing/glancing across your skin, you turn around, unable to stop yourself, no one is there, you know that no one is there, but you still look, why do you look/ you want to scream, but don't knowing that if you do, they will know, they don't know what happened, they don't know that anything is wrong, and you won't tell them, cause you're a coward, you hold the blade above your wrist, but can't do it, instead you place the blade down and slash it down in three quick strikes (one, two, three), not deep enough so that you bleed out, just enough so that they will remind you, what the others remind you of everyday, but you still can't find the strength to do it, to end it, you know what awaits you, and you will welcome it when it comes, but you still can't do it, but still you slice, three (one, two, three), for the rest of life, if you can call what you're doing a life, one for your big brother (he never left you, until he did), two for your fallen angel (the only friend you had, until he wasn't), and the final one (the one you known you shouldn't do for it is selfish, and you try, try? not to be selfish/the hot water cascading down you mixes in with the tears that are never seen, never heard, never real, if they were real than that would make this real, this pain, this loneliness, this everything real, which it can't be, cause there can't be a you without a them, you hope, pray, that this is the day, the day when you can find the strength to do what needs to be done, the day when it can end, it never ends, why won't it end, you to the bridge, you step right to the edge, but you can't take the one more step, why can't you take the one step? You know what will happen, you're hip bones will shatter, hitting the water from the height will make it feel like concrete, if you don't die on impact, the injuries sustained to your body will make it impossible for you to swim away, you will drown, your lungs will constrict, your mind will be filled with panic until the very last second, onto which you slip into unconsciousness, then nothing./p
