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Hey Lucas.

This is another letter you're not gonna read. Well, who knows, maybe when I go away to California for college, or maybe NY, and you stay in NC and I come back with another more 81 letters. Nah, not this time. This one single letter will have to do the deal.

You're wondering why I'm writing this, right?! Actually, you can't wonder anything cause you're not reading/gonna read it but the point is I have to let it out and I have no one to turn to and do that, so the writing is my last option here. Not that I like it, I'd rather have the real thing but it's better than not having anything at all. Anyway, to the point…

Remember when I said I didn't miss you?! The truth is I did. A lot. Hell, it's a month and I still do! But when I look back and remember why I did it… it was not only for me. I was hurting; I still am, specially now that you seem to have really forgotten about everything that happened between us… or about me. It was my birthday just in the past month you couldn't even get the phone to wish me a happy birthday… for old times' sake. Well, I guess that's what's called "moving on" and I guess that's what I don't know how to do. Yet. I couldn't do it the first time, I couldn't do it when I went to California. Well, people say three's a charm so this time I might be able to do it right.

I didn't break up with you because I didn't love you. I do… I mean, I did. I did that to spare both of us from all the heartache. I did that for me, for you and for Peyton. I said it wasn't about her but it was. Only not the way you thought it'd be. She told me she still had feelings for you, and the reason I got so mad at her was because I knew the moment you heard it she'd have you. Again. I mean, all those feelings you kept on telling me were not there, it'd be only a matter of time for all of them to resurface and I'd be the one getting the short end of the stick. Again.

So I guess because of it, because I was afraid of being hurt again, by the boy that I love and the girl that I love, I decided to break up with you and spare everyone from the heartache. I'm not sure I'd take it all back if I had a second chance on this. I knew you'd not have any feelings left for Peyton in there I'd take it back, in a blink of an eye but I know it's not like that. Maybe I was too naïve to believe everything you kept telling me, about how you loved me and how I was the one for you… or maybe I just wanted it to be true so bad, I wanted to feel wanted, and not just because of the physical threats, that I pushed that voice inside my head that was telling me to take everything with a grain of salt and decided to believe you. To give myself to you unconditionally and believe what you said. Too bad life's not a fairy tale and not everyone lives happily ever after.

I don't hold any resentment towards you, Lucas, nor towards Peyton. I just wanted you to know that. And if you and Peyton ever wanna try to be a couple, I wish you could love her, like really love her, the way you said you did to me… but this time make sure you really mean it. And I hope she can make you happy, cause that's all I want. And don't forget, "People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.'. If you and her are meant to be, well, you already found each other again. If you're not… who knows, we might meet again someday. :)

Take care, Lucas. And take care of Peyton.

Love,

Brooke Penelope Davis.