You suck
First a little visit to Degrassi: Next Generation.
This happens in respectively between the episodes "Still fighting it (part 2)" and "Purple Pills (Part 1)."
"So, what are we gonna do on our date tonight?"
This couldn't be real. Riley acting so casual about it was definitely the least thing he had expected. Well apart from actually being bought for 50 bucks by the guy who had asked him for another chance only minutes ago. Zane had definitely not expected that and although he didn't want to show it, he was nervous as hell about that. Maybe Riley was only acting casual; if yes Zane could do the same.
"About that… my schedule is ah … pretty full," he commented while they walked away from his locker towards the exit. For some reason he couldn't hide a grin, it felt good having Riley actually fight for him.
"Hey I bought you fair and square, the whole school is my witness." Riley's way about the whole situation made Zane actually smile, he still had problems believing what was happening right now. If this was the way the "Riley-that-likes-him" acted he had pretty good chances with Zane.
"What are they gonna think?" he asked as he turned towards Riley.
Before he could answer Drew appeared. "So. It's official?"
"What's official?" Riley immediately responded. Sometimes he really was a bit too naïve. But maybe that was a part of what drew Zane to him.
"You know," Drew continued, "people have been wondering if you're gay." Why the ass looked to Zane first he had no idea but it was obvious he was up to something against Riley and this way football Riley might come back pretty soon.
Zane decided to do something about it quick. He put a hand on Riley's shoulder and lied his ass off. "He was just helping out a team-mate." Riley's short look towards him made it obvious he wasn't quite understanding Zane's actions. However Drew seemed to have at least the 'back-off' message possibly because of Zane's false smile.
"Cool," he slightly shrugged with the shoulders, "it's none of my business." And he took off.
Riley's hand came close to Zane's as he spoke. "You didn't have to cover for me."
"I know," Zane commented with slight annoyance in his tone, "it just bothers me when people feel entitled to an answer."
"You're amazing, I don't know why you keep giving me chances."
Because you always surprise me you hot jock. Zane decided to settle for something else, but couldn't suppress the grin. "Me neither, but you keep trying and if you didn't that would kinda suck." That wasn't the full truth but a big part of it.
"So that means…" The hope in Riley's voice was evident.
Zane's were high as well but Drew's appearance reminded him of Riley's other sites again and so he settled for something less than what he had originally in mind. Zane gently took Riley's hand, only brushing them against each other. He looked down at their hands as he started. "That means you got some date planning to do." He looked up halfway through the sentence.
As he walked away, he couldn't help but smile from one ear to the other.
"I don't think I've ever seen such big S'mores before," Zane said as he stared at the desserts, he never would have guessed that Riley would order something with that much calories. Especially after an evening of pool, burgers and mashed potatoes.
Riley laughed. "I'm pretty sure I haven't. When they told me about it, I got an instant feeling you would like them."
His words were still shy, hesitant, making Zane aware how nervous his Riley was. He mentally berated himself. It was only 1 hour into their date and he already thought of him as 'his Riley' again. He looked up from his plate and found himself captured by Riley's shy gaze. It had been a long time since he had gazed at him with the mix of lust and shyness currently residing in Riley's slanted blue-grey eyes. In fact, he could swear he'd not seen the like since the summer when he and Riley had their first few weeks of relationship. His body responded and the only rational thought left in his head was that he'd like to lick chocolate and marshmallow and whipped cream off of Riley's naked skin.
"Eat," Riley urged in a whisper soft voice that didn't disguise his arousal. "Then we'll walk off the calories." Trust his Riley to think of that as well. Zane berated himself once more for thinking that way.
Dragging his gaze back to his plate Zane cut into one of the S'mores, breaking it into manageable pieces. He picked up a gooey bite and popped it into his mouth, absently licking his fingers of chocolate. Riley's eyes glinted but he didn't say a word, just copied Zane's actions and took a bite of his own dessert. Zane looked away when Riley licked marshmallow and chocolate from his forefinger and thumb. He didn't need the sexual tension between them right now. This was another chance for Riley and not foreplay for a night full of sex. Damn his cock got hard at the thought of seeing Riley's upper body again.
They ate in silence and Zane asked himself what would happen once dinner was over. Riley's expression clearly indicated how much he wanted to take Zane to bed and Zane's cock already throbbed with his need to fall in with what Riley wanted. Why was he reacting like this now? He wanted to give Riley a chance and not screw with him for god's sake.
As he pushed away his plate, licking the chocolate, peanut butter, and whipped cream from his bottom lip, he found Riley looking at him again. A tiny bit of chocolate resided in the left corner of his enticing lips and Zane wanted to lick it off. He couldn't resist Riley. His body demanded his sweet guy.
When Riley pushed away his plate and stood while offering his hand, Zane wondered if his legs would work. He felt shaky and his heart beat in a rapid rhythm that made his chest ache. Standing slowly but not taking the offered hand, he carefully kept his gaze averted. He knew if he looked at Riley and saw that expression of intense lust in those grey eyes, he'd be lost. As he followed Riley from the restaurant, he felt resistance was futile. His head might still be nursing a grudge for being thrown into a dumpster – plus insecurities regarding his feelings for Riley - and not want to end up in the boy's bed, but his heart and his body sang with the inevitability of it.
My Riley. He's mine.
The words rang over and over inside him. They pounded with the rhythm of his feet on the stone path as he followed Riley into the park. At least they weren't climbing the stairs to Riley's home. Maybe, just maybe, Zane could manage to avoid having sex with Riley. But damn, it would be their first time and Riley might somewhat forget how he looked but being next to Riley and not have sex with him was often pure torture, especially when he was sweaty from workout, his muscles pumped and his body on high alert. Zane had to shake his head; luckily he was still behind Riley.
Despite how much he wanted it, his headspace wasn't ready for it. Wouldn't be ready for it until Zane had a chance to sort out his feelings and rid himself of the anger that still welled within him when he thought of the all the trouble he had been in thanks to Riley's mood swings. If football Riley would be no longer, there wouldn't be any problem. But obviously that Riley wasn't that strong or his Riley would never have bought him in front of several dozen people. He must have known what that would start.
He glanced up as he stepped into a little side area surrounded by tall hedges. Small statues of baby angels and Greek women gleamed dully in the moonlight. He wondered what they were doing in such a park and how the city managed to keep them so clean. And then all rational thought left his head as Riley grasped his chin and pulled his head around. Hot soft lips pressed to his and Zane moaned, tasting the chocolate they'd eaten. His lips parted and his tongue flicked out. Riley opened his mouth and delicious heat fired Zane's groin as their tongues touched.
Riley pressed his hips to Zane's; grinding his thick erection against Zane's swelling cock. No matter how badly his head didn't want this, Zane's body overruled every part of his mind, crying out for release. He wrapped his arms around Riley, pressing himself tightly to the firm body he had missed so much, clinging to him as they kissed. The hard muscles of Riley's back rippled beneath the fabric of his shirt and the flat of Zane's palms. Intense pleasure spilled through Zane and he barely registered the fact that Riley had begun to maneuver him backward. The kiss broke when he bumped up against a statue, the cold stone barely registering through the back of his shirt because of the heat raging in his body. Riley stood pressed to his chest, panting, his eyes glittering in the low light as he tugged at the button and zipper of Zane's slacks.
"Jesus! Riley, what are you doing?" Zane gasped, wondering if the boy wanted to fuck him there in the park.
"Giving you a good time, Zane. I am gonna use my chance every way I got," Riley replied, his voice husky and on edge.
He pushed Zane's pants down, taking his boxers with them. Sucking in air, his heart beating rapidly, Zane looked down to see his cock rising from between his shirt tails and Riley kneeling on the grass. His eyes widened at Riley's posture. This was totally crazy, if anybody would walk in on them they might get arrested and Riley would be practically out of the closet for good. At first the bachelor auction and now he was doing this, it made Zane wonder what use his covering of Riley had been if his boyfriend had planned this all along. Zane knew he should pull back but seeing Riley on his knees, his curly light-brown head so close to Zane's stiff cock washed all reservations away.
"I've never given a blowjob before, but I know the basics about them."
Just that almost innocent suggestion alone was enough to push Zane over the edge. Damn if Riley only knew the affect he had over Zane. He had the power to drive Zane to his knees with a simple smile.
Gazing up at Zane, Riley said, "Just remember, I've never done this before. So if I mess up, don't laugh at me."
Zane was so shocked that shaking his head was the only move he managed.
Riley gave him a shy grin before darting his tongue out for tentative taste. At the first flick of wetness, Zane let out a moan. That seemed to give Riley the confidence to grab another taste, this time he even swirled his tongue over the tip of Zane's cock. A tiny part of Zane wanted to make Riley stop but before he could say a word or even think what to do, Riley wrapped one hand around the base of his cock. Zane gasped again. Riley touching his cock had to be the most pleasure he'd ever experienced. As he watched, Riley lowered his mouth to the swollen head and licked it like an ice cream cone.
Zane didn't think he could take much more; he even opened his mouth to say as much. But then Riley parted his lips and sucked Zane in and all thoughts of protesting vanished.
Riley began to clumsily bob his head up and down, his body tense as he darted worried looks up at Zane. Zane knew he smiled down at Riley and started to gently stroke through Riley's curls. This seemed to let Riley finally sink into the passion and just let instinct take over. He even closed his eyes.
Zane thought he'd lose it. His balls tightened painfully with the instant need to come. Riley worked his mouth down Zane's thick erection. Panting and trying desperately not to make a fool of himself by coming after only a couple of licks and sucks, Zane watched his lover lick his length. Flushed with lust, sweat beading his hairline, he stared incredulously as Riley sucked his cock. Zane could barely believe Riley had only ever done this with him. He did it so well, Zane could easily accept that Riley had been sucking a different cock every night they'd been apart. But then again this was his first blow-job ever so what did he know?
Riley stared up at him, eyes intent and filled with dark emotion. Zane knew in that instant Riley was a virgin. The only cock he'd ever had in his mouth was Zane's. If Riley sucked him like an expert it was because he wanted Zane more than he had ever wanted anyone else. The truth melted Zane's heart. Riley wanted him. He'd never done the things he did with Zane with any other guy. If he gave Riley time, the boy would figure out who his true friends were. It was inevitable.
When Riley's fingers dug into Zane's buttocks, he shivered. His orgasm drew close, his spine tingling with the knowledge that pleasure's peak lay only a few short licks and sucks away. Pumping his hips a little, fucking Riley's face gently, Zane drifted on a plane where only his cock and Riley's mouth existed. The hot wet suction, the slurping sounds, the tongue flicks, all drove him wild.
A finger traced the crease of his ass and Zane lost it. He babbled something about letting Riley go. His control shattered and his cock exploded, shooting hot cum into the night sky. Zane could feel Riley's tongue licking along his shaft. Zane clutched at Riley's hair trying to keep his balance as his legs grew weak. Finally, Riley eased back, stood and took Zane in his arms, nuzzling his throat.
"Come with me. Please, Zane," he begged quietly.
Reality splintered the pleasure zone Zane had been in. All this past thoughts came back to him in one big, stone-heard wave, his lust and love, his giving over to Riley, that he had already named Riley as his boyfriend, his lover, in his head. He stumbled back a step and bent to pull up his boxers and slacks. As he zipped up his pants, he met Riley's dark, shuttered gaze.
"I can't. And this shouldn't have happened.2 He sighed. He wanted to be with Riley. Why the hell was he denying them both the relationship?
Riley's eyes darkened. "I'm sorry," he croaked hoarsely.
"I just mean it's too soon," Zane hastened to explain, wanting to erase the sadness he saw filtering back into Riley's expression. "I need a little more time to figure out my head." His lover's head bobbed in a nod. "I understand. I shouldn't have done this tonight. But I want to know whether I haven't ruined what there is between us."
A thrill of excitement caused Zane's body to tremble. "I don't know, yet," he replied honestly. "But I know that this night was great even before this."
Riley stepped closer, his body rubbing against Zane's. Unable to stop himself, Zane leaned in and kissed Riley. Short, hot, and sweet, their lips pressed together, open but with no tongue. He drew back and sucked in a deep breath. "I need to think."
Riley smiled, the movement of his lips part sad and part happy. He stepped away from Zane. "I understand."
Zane walked away from his lover on unsteady legs. At the split in the yew hedge, he looked over his shoulder at Riley who still stood beside the statue.
"We'll see each other at school."
Zane's head was clear again. Maybe it was the sex or just the fact that his Riley was back but if it was up to him they could be boyfriends right now.
Riley was nearly inside the building when Zane caught up with him. The boy instantly smiled and Zane thought again of their first time.
Riley motioned with his head for going inside and Zane couldn't do any different than just nod.
"I had a great time last night," Riley stated with obvious joy.
Zane didn't replay for a second or two. "Me too." What else were you supposed to say after your first time, especially with dozens of people around you and Zane really wasn't into that sort of gay advertising.
Riley nervously looked down and rubbed his pants as Zane faced him again. The problem was that Zane was a bit out of words in general as it seemed. "Hope there's a sequel." Please say yes.
"Count on it," Riley said with a slight nod and short look towards Zane's hip area.
Zane didn't want to risk the temptation of jumping Riley right here so he settled for a causal touch of the hand and turned around, only vaguely noticing Anja as he felt his cock straining against his pants.
