Disclaimer: i do NOT own the Teen Titans...yet [lol jk jk]
Don't get me wrong I honestly despise Terra; however, I could not help writing something good about her...so enjoy.
Read&Review please!
Things Change
(Terra's Point of View)
I never wanted to hurt anyone…I never wanted to see anyone suffer because of me, least of all the people I love. I was confused. I was alone, reckless, and out of control and they helped me. They took me in when I had nowhere to go. They befriended me, accepted me, loved me. Whenever I think of my family it's their faces that I see.
They did so much for me and how did I repay them? I abandoned them. I lied to them. I betrayed them. I was foolish, cowardly and weak. When I look back on it I make myself sick. When I woke up all I wanted to do was forget everything. I wanted to forget my powers, forget Slade, forget the Titans. But above all else, I wanted to forget him.
I tried so hard. At first I would always see them and the memories was so very strong, but here lately they have become hazy. The images are foggy, undecipherable. I have a new family, new friends, a new life. Everything was going my way…until he came back into my life. I tried to forget, I tried so hard, but I remember. I remember him. I remember his voice, his smile, his laugh, all his cheesy jokes that made me smile no matter how upset I was.
He is a hero who wears his heart on his sleeves, that's why he's hurting. He still loves me even now. After everything I did to him, after all the pain and suffering I caused, he still loves me and I still love him. All of these reasons are why I have to lie to him now.
"Why can't things just go back to the way the were? You were so happy then," his voice is full of pain. I don't want to hurt him again but I know I have to in order to protect him in the end. "Things were never the way you remember. Leave me alone," I say sharply.
"Here," he holds out his Titan communicator, "Take this. In case you're in trouble, in case you need me. You can call me anytime." I'm sure he doesn't even know that I still have my other one, hidden in the bottom off my closet. "I don't need it," I say as I take a step back. He steps forward, "But…" "Time's up," I go to turn around as I speak.
"Terra," he says so softly. The pain in his voice is almost unbearable and my heart begins to ache for him. I want him. I want his forgiveness, his friendship, his love. I almost lose my courage, I almost give into my longing for what we had. But I stand my ground. "Things change Beast Boy. The girl you want me to be is just a memory," my voice came out stronger than I thought it would and his eyes change. They are pleading me to reconsider as his communicator goes off.
"Come with me," he says. "You go. You're the Teen Titan. That's not me. I'm not a hero. I'm not out to save the world. I'm just a girl with a geometry test next period and I haven't studied," I back away from him as the bell rings. People walk between us as the distance increases. I can feel my heart breaking as he mutters into the communicator and then runs off to help the Titans.
I want so badly to follow him, to help him. I miss the Titans. I miss the good times. I want to follow him but I don't. I won't let myself cause him anymore pain. I won't let myself hurt him again. This is what's best for him. They always say if you truly love someone let them go…well I love you Beast Boy, that's why I'm letting go.
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