The Way I Felt & The Way I Still Feel
Couple: Spencer Carlin/Ashley Davies
Disclaimer: I do not own South Of Nowhere or the charecters well except for two of them that you meet in chapter 2.
Summery: Just laying here on my bed trying to get some sleep but all I can think about is Ashley and how it would feel to finally kiss her.
AN: This is my first fanfic ever so I hope that you all like it and thank you for reading, enjoy. Spencers thoughts are in italic.
Chapter 1
Just laying here on my bed trying to get some sleep but all I can think about is Ashley and how it would feel to finally kiss her. I know that she has feelings for me and yet I'm still afraid to let her know how I really feel.
"That's it, tomarrow I will tell her how I feel and everything will be perfect, finally." Spencer said still a little unsure if she could actually bring herself to do it.
"Ugh! It's probably too late by now anyways, I mean she told me how she felt in high school and that was like three years ago. Am I really supposed to believe that she still feels that way for me." Spencer rambled on feeling really sad.
"I just wish that I would have told her then (sigh) and then we would be together right now instead of me being here in my tiny one bedroom appartment all alone and unhappy. Thats just great Spencer Carlin now you're talking to yourself, what would Ash think of you now? I know exactly what she would think, that I was crazy or something. Oh great now I'm answering myself too."
Spencer turned over too look at her alarm clock and it read 11:00 P.M. and as she was getting ready to turn back over her cellphone began to ring. She reached over and picked up her cell from the nightstand and noticing that it was Ashley she answered it pretty quickly.
"Hey Ash." Spencer said maybe a little too excited. Great Spence just let her know how eager you are to talk to her. "Hey, I didn't wake you did I?" Ashley replied noticing how excited Spencer was. "No, no of course not. Can't sleep is all, how about you?" She said finally able to calm down her excitement. "Can't sleep either but I was also wondering if maybe you would like to go with me, Kyla, Aiden and Glen to the new club, Club Desire tomarrow night?"Asked Ash a little hesitant and hoping that she'd say yes. Say yes Spence, say yes come on now you can do it. " Ye...yeah of course it sounds like it'll be fun so where do we meet." "At my place at 7:00, we could have dinner and then meet everyone there, sound good?" Ash asked really hoping that she'd say yes. "Yeah sounds great I'll be there at 7:00." She said all excited again. "Ok 7:00 it is, I'll let you go so you can get some sleep... night." "Night." Spence said as she hung up her cell.
Yes, yes, yes I can tell her at dinner tomarrow. Well maybe I should wait till we get to the club. No, I think I'll tell her afterwards, after everyone has left and gone home. Yeah we will both have some drinks in us and it will be easier to talk right? Unless I get too nervous and drink way too much and a drunk Spencer is a really horny Spencer wait maybe thats a good thing. Spence was thinking with a smirk on her face.
As Spencer was thinking about Ashley and how she couldn't wait till tomarrow she finally fell asleep.
Hmm what to ware, what to ware? My pink tube top? No not that. The orange blouse? Ugh, of course not. "Yes! My blue halter top and my tight black jeans. I know how much she loves seeing me in them." Ok only an hour to shower, get ready and make it over to Ashleys on time, damn I better hurry.
Finally, I'm ready to go. With twenty minutes to spare Spence got in the car and headed over to Ash's place.
Come on Spence you're here, now get off your butt and go knock on Ashleys door. As I was fastly approaching the door I was beginning to get even more nervous than I was before. As I got ready to knock, the door flew open and there stood Ash in her black halter top and a sexy skirt, really sexy and all I could do is stand there and stare in awe. "Wow, you look amazingly sexy... not that you didn't look sexy before... I mean... you look great." Spencer said nervously. "Thanks Spence, so do you. " Replied Ashley with a wide grin on her face.
"Come on in dinner will be ready in ten." Ash said while she headed twards the kitchen. Spencer closed the door then followed Ashley.
"Mmmm smells good, what is it?" She asked while trying to peek over Ashleys shoulder. "It's gumbo... you like?" Ash asked. "Mmmm yes very much so, as long as you have all the right stuff." Spencer replied. "I have all the right stuff." Ashley said winking at Spencer with a smirk on her face.
Oh my god I'm blushing so bad right now I just know it, maybe she won't notice. Yeah right who am I kidding.
"Sooo, when are we supposed to meet everyone at the club?" Spence asked trying to ignore what Ashley just said.
A little bumbed that spence didn't say anything to what she said but still happy that she was able to make her best friend blush Ash decided to just go with it. "Around 9:00 and the club closes at 2:00 A.M. I believe."
"Ok cool. Sence dinners almost done do you want me to go and set the dining room table?" She asked hoping to get a few minutes to calm herself. "Nope... it's already been done but you can go have a seet and I'll be there in a minute with the food." Ashley replied. "Oh and can you get the wine from the freezer please, I got your faveorate."
After Spencer grabbed the wine she headed to the dining room and she couldn't help but notice the romantic scene before her.
Wow I can't believe she did this. Ashley had some candles out and some light music playing in the backround, my faveorate flowers as a center piece on the table, awww how sweet. Wait does that mean that she does still want me? Well maybe I'm just reading too much into it and she's just trying to make it nice for her best friend.
Spencers thoughts were interupted when Ash came walking into the room with the food setting it on the table and then taking her seet.
"Bon appetit." Ash said while pouring some wine into their glasses.
As they started eating Spence couldn't help but think about how much trouble Ashley went through to put all this together and even though it made her happy to know that she was willing to do all this for her she was still just as nervous as ever.
Ok Spence... play it cool."You're mom really ran off with some guy from England?" Yeah real smooth Spence real smooth.
"Well not just some guy in her words a really rich guy." Ashley replied while laughing which made Spencer laugh as well.
Well at least I didn't totally screw it up, thanks to Ash who really is my best friend and hopefully more really soon, really, really soon. Just wanna wake up by her side every morning and make love every chance we get. Of course and tell her how much I love her every single day and night if you know what I mean.
"Helloooo, earth to Spence... are you ok?" Ashley asked a little worried for her friend.
"Hu? Me? Am I ok? Sorry yeah of course I'm ok." Spencer said while blushing which didn't go unoticed by Ashley. "I was just thinking." She added still blushing.
"About what?" Ash asked really curious to what had Spence blushing so bad.
"I...I...I ummm, just stuff." Spence replied nervously.
Man this is really hard but I don't think that I'm ready to tell her just yet. Please don't make me say it yet Ash please don't.
Seeing that Spencer was in distress Ash decided to let it slide for now.
"Hey you want to watch a movie till its time to leave? I just gotta clean things up first and then we can pop a movie in, hows that sound?" Ashley asked hoping to get a yes.
"Sure that sounds great. You want some help cleaning up?" Spencer asked.
"No thanks, I got it. Just go sit down and relax I'll be there in a few." Ash replied.
"All right." She said back to Ashley as she walked into the living room and sat down on the couch to wait for her.
Hmmm I wonder what movie she's going to pick. I hope it's not The Goonies don't get me wrong or anything I love that movie I used to watch it all the time. It just seems that whenever me and Ash watch a movie together anymore it's allways that one and a girl can only watch a movie sooo many times before before it starts to get old. Who knows maybe if she waits long enough I'll actually watch it with her again.
Spencers thoughts were enterupted when Ashley came walking in and sat down beside her on the couch.
"Hey." Ash said. "Hey. Spence replied. "So hows about we watch D.E.B.S.?" Ashley asked. "I know it's cheesey and everything but I really love it.
"Sure, sounds good to me." Spencer replied. "Great it's settled then... D.E.B.S. it is." Ash said while popping in the dvd, sitting back down and pressing play.
As they were watching the movie the time flew by and it was almost time to go. Ash had already called a cab which they both agreed on sence they had been drinking and planned on drinking even more at the club. So all they had to do was freshen up and hop in the cab.
