Explanation

The years have passed,

Like rain flowing down the drain.

Leaving me as an empty shell

With only one intention to fullfill,

This my only ambition.


My heart sings for revenge,

A beautiful, haunting tone that cuts the soul,

I've learned to follow this song.

Wherever it might take me.

Whatever it will bid me to do.


I see that you can't understand how it drives me.

You are familiar with the pain of loneliness

But you've never had anyone to miss in the first place

And so you can't see the pain of losing everything in one swipe.


Your proud proclamations still ring in my ears,

Along with your impossible dream.

Did you ever know how much words like those burns a person like me?

For someone like me, whose dream only exists in the past...

It is like a bitter poison without a cure.


You're my very best friend

But you are not enough to replace those I've lost.

To avenge them I will throw away what is left

For the power that I crave.

The power I need to defeat the one who brought me my misery,

The one that placed our great clan in the grave in less than a day,

My very own flesh-and-blood brother.


There is no going back for me, my friend,

I've come too far and I've lost too much to back out now.

And my dream, even more impossible than yours, is a fool's hope:

That my brother will turn around and tell me it was all a mistake,

Only a nightmare that has lasted too long.


Strange isn't it?

I hate him, I despise him.

Just like he told me years ago when he spared me,

Me alone in his massacre.

And still, all I want is to see him look at me

With a smile instead of those empty red eyes again

Before he's gone forever by my own hand.


Do you see now, my friend?

I can't call you a brother – I already have one

And blood is thicker than water, so they say.

To fullfill his expectations,

To avenge our family,

I will kill him.

But for that I need power

And power is born out of suffering.

But there is no more time for talk, my very best of friends,

You are going to die here and now

Because I can't change what I am.

2005-10-27