I was in a small winter wonderland. Everything was white, the floor, the walls, even the ceiling. It was so cold, I swear I could see snow falling to the ground. The floor looked soft, perhaps it's already covered in snow. I tried to move, but I couldn't. Am I frozen? I wondered. I'm a girl of ice and snow. I exhaled slowly. I couldn't move an inch. I could only sit here and watch the snow fall. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. They all looked so different, they were all unique, and incredibly beautiful. No glamour could ever be as beautiful as these snowflakes. I could feel a pit in my stomach beginning to form at the thought of glamour. It was a cruel thing Lunars used to manipulate each other. To control others. All for their selfish needs.
I shifted my eyes up toward the ceiling, my heart dropping at the sight, I felt sick. The walls were bleeding again. The blood reminded me of the battle who knows how long ago, I recalled a few memories. Queen Levana...the guards...the wolf mutants...the thaumaturges...Scarlet..
Scarlet...Jacin...Aimery...
Thaumaturge Aimery almost made me choke Jacin to death through manipulation...then he was distracted by Scarlet-friend...then she stabbed him nine times.
No-I manipulated her into stabbing him nine times. I was a monster...
Nine times.
I stabbed him nine times..
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This repeated until I finally looked down to the floor, I was no longer frozen and I finally thawed out. There was blood pooled around my bed. I shuddered, a million thoughts racing through my head. My breathing getting faster every second. The whole room was blood red.
"I do not know that even a sane person could recover from this. So how can I?"
The words I spoke to Jacin ran through my head. Not even a sane person could ever recover from such a thing...
Before I knew it, I was screaming and kicking. My face was wet with burning tears. I was violently thrashing, but the restraints kept me from moving. I felt trapped, I was alone, and I was a monster.
Stay with me, princess
Jacin's words rang through my head until my voice gave out after what felt like ours of screaming. My body ached and I felt exhausted. I felt myself beginning to fall asleep again, the room turned white and it was cold again, I watched as snowflakes fell from the ceiling.
I'm a girl of ice and snow.