My Soul, Your Beats
A/n: Hey guys. I decided that the story I started earlier, "Love Triangle" wasn't too good :l But I intend to remedy that situation. Here is a new project, hopefully this won't turn into a failure as well :)
Disclaimer: I do not own Angel Beats! In any way, shape, or form.
Chapter 1: The forced will
Screw this place. I will never forgive it for what it has done to me. No person can experience this kind of eternal suffering. No, I will not move on. I just can't, not with the memories of "her" at risk. I don't want to forget. I want to remember for as long as I live!
I have so many memories, and they will all vanish the moment I'm at peace. How is that fair! It isn't! No, I can't think that way.
(She's waiting for you)
NO SHE ISN'T! She doesn't remember anything about me! None of them know my name anymore! I'm just a blank thought in their mind, not the man I was when they were here with me.
You will feel at peace, don't you want that)
But I will forget, and that isn't something that I can do. If I forget, then the whole time spent here would've been wasted. What if my next life isn't even worth it? What if it's worse than the cards I was dealt the first time? How could I possibly know if passing on is the right choice?
(You know it is. You forced them to pass on, you gave them the kindness they needed. They would've done the same for you, so grant their wishes. Now go, she's waiting for you...)
Who are you? Why are you trying to change my mind? My will is not one that is easily broken, I'm warning you of that! Whoever you are, you aren't in control of what I think!
(But I am YOU. Every thought to protect, your every action that was intended to save, that was me. I am the goodness that is inside you, the part that hopes, wait, KNOWS that she is waiting for you. Just trust that the goodness in your soul will lead you in the right direction.)
Your a liar, you can't be real. Why didn't I recognize you? Why didn't I feel these thoughts coming to surface? None of this adds up! There is nothing logical about this!
(According to all known logic, there's no such thing as an after-life either, but your here. Just accept it, move on, you'll find her, I just know it!)
You know, I think your right. I've been fighting the inevitable. I have but one question before I move on though...
(What is it?)
What guarantee do I have that I will end up finding her? I must know this, for she was, no, IS, my only reason for living! If there is no chance of finding her, then my life will be forever empty, I can guarantee that!
(Do you trust in the kindness of your soul? The part of your being that will always lead you to the right direction?)
Yes
(Then you will find her. You might not recognize her right away, but she will come to you, and you will be happy once more!)
Fine. I just hope that your right...
(And then you were gone...)
