CHAPTER 1
Katniss
"Katniss, Katniss where are you? Don't leave me Katniss I need you! Come back Katniss please, I need you!" My eyes were glued on the boy whose words rang through my ears. With his perfect dirty blonde hair and eyes as blue as the ocean it self, he looked like god. The boy looked familiar but I couldn't place my finger on who it was. I wanted to respond to the boy, but my mouth wouldn't let me, so I just sat there and watched his beautiful figure cry in sorrow for me. Then it happened. A mutt with ferocious black eyes came out onto the clearing. My mind was telling him to run but my mouth wouldn't respond. The mutt jumped on him, ripping him to shreds. His screaming got louder and then all of a sudden, he stopped. Then I realized that I knew him; it was Peeta. My Peeta just died and I didn't help him.
"No, no, no, no, no, NOOOOOO!!!" I shrieked. Possibly the love of my life was murdered right in front of me, and I could do absolutely nothing to help him. How could I live with myself after this?! The agony, the torture, it would all be too much. There were so many mixed feelings about Peeta, swirling around in my head. Suddenly, I felt a hasty tugging of my shoulder. Because of this, I sat jolt upright, only to find the presence of Gale standing right next to me. It was all just a dream!
The anger was building up inside of me, swelling to great heights. "What are you doing in my room, Gale?!" I exclaimed.
"I heard you scream and I got frightened. You know it's been three nights straight that you have been screaming. All of them were about Peeta. You know there is a probable chance that he is dead, and maybe even being used as bait. You have got to let him go Katniss, once and for all. I understand that he is your friend, but this attachment between you and him has gotten out of hand. It doesn't even seem like friendship any more it seems more like…" He paused for a second, and then barely audible he said, "You know what just forget it."
"First of all, Gale, I know in my heart that he is not dead!! You can't just go around, holding your head up high and state that he is. Why are you the one to tell ME that I have to let him go? You don't run my life; also you don't need to control me 24 hours a day. Second of all, I have experienced the Games. My supposed 'attachment' towards him is there because he protected and cared for me during the games. And, he was supposed to be here right now, safe and sound. Instead, he is somewhere with the President, probably being tortured to death for answers he doesn't know. So I think it is reasonable for me to feel this way. If you don't like it, I guess you should just leave."
Gale just stood there, his muscles began to stiffen. His hands clenched into a fist and his knuckles turned white. He hit a lamp, as I think it was, and it crashed to the floor shattering into a million pieces.
"You know what," he screamed. "I have been your friend for how many years now? Certainly more than your…your lover boy. I think I deserve some sort of affection too. I've seen how you showered him with your kisses, and I don't even think he deserved them. While he was getting showered out there with not only your love but everyone else's. I was working hard to protect not only my family but yours and I got nothing from it. Katniss, I know this not what your expecting, but I can't take it anymore. Is it him or is it me? Katniss I know what you did in the games is just an act. You don't have to act anymore you can be yourself. I'm your friend, and I am telling you this because I think if I don't tell you now then I will never be able to tell you. I love Katniss, I have ever since, probably longer then that little lover boy of yours."
I could see the tears welling up in his eyes. He was trying to hold it back, I could tell, but it gave away a little and a tear slid down his face. I was in shock and I didn't know what to say. This was the first time I had seen Gale cry; even when his father died I dare not say I saw Gale shed a tear. He was leaning in now. I didn't know what to do the shock stood me in my place. His lips barley touched mine as he closed me in a big embrace. I stood my ground, knowing that if I pulled away I would hurt Gale, but somehow standing there in Gale's arms I felt that I was hurting some one.
How long we kissed I don't know. When he finally pulled away, though, the smile he wore was big and like no other one I've seen him wear. I couldn't help but smile, looking at his happy face. His eyes were boring into mine even though the smile he wore begged to differ. Then I realized what they were begging to know. I pulled away from his arms and I began to stutter. "Look Gale, what happened over there doesn't change anything, I, Gale, I, I, I really don't still know. I mean I understand that you have been there for me and have helped me, I get that. But so did Peeta, he helped me and he even cared for me when I took all he ever lived for away from him. It doesn't change anything Gale, I care for you both. I can't choose right now Gale, I just can't."
I turn around and I really wished that I didn't. The pain in Gale's face was worse than anything that I felt right now.
"Oh," was all he could say. I turned away from him so I wouldn't have to see how much it hurt him. I heard the door close behind him as he left my room. I collapsed on my bed and did the only thing I did the best these few days, I cried. I felt pain for both Peeta and Gale. I cared for both of them. I couldn't choose between them. I knew if I choose Peeta I would have to live with a ruthful and unhappy Gale all my life. But if I choose Gale then I would have to deal with a sad and lifeless Peeta. Both way one of them would be sad, and I couldn't stand that. I was afraid to close my eyes I didn't want to be taken into another nightmare. So I stay awake pondering on my life wondering what would happened if I was never alive. I was on the verge of sleep when I heard footsteps pass my door in a hurry. "We have to tell her, it is the only way she will cope to our plan. You want to overthrow the government don't you?" Came an unmistakable voice of Finnick.
